I just cant get enough of that sig ep pizza

[utbri16]

its 530 and i have an 8 oclock so that means im not going to bed. im impressed that im able to type this much right now because its been a really exausting last couple of hours. i have so much stuff on my mind right now but no one is gonna understand what im truly felling by reading words on a computer screen. i feel like i have 2 parts of me at this point in time. one of those parts is fully satisfied and happy with everything that is going on even though its very tough and requires a lot of work. This part is making new friends and making lifelong friendships that, after a couple more months of this bonding, will be strong enough to overcome anything. This part is experiencing new and fun things on a more regular basis and will definatly look back on these years one day and smile. The other part of me is a little sad and hurt about changes that are happening, changes that other people said would never happen no matter how long apart we were. People drifting even farther away than in the past and my efforts to maintain contact with them seem to just be strong enough to get a 'hi' 'whats up' responce before they go back to their busy lifestyles. Im not trying to direct blame in any part of this post because there is no one to blame. Maybe this is just how it is supose to be and thats why the first part of me is in such a good place right now. Ive tried to keep the second part of me alive for a while and i dont know what to do anymore because it isnt getting me anywhere and no one really seems to care from my point of view. Maybe i should just stop making the effort and let it go, i cant just sit around wondering if they even think about me anymore, im gonna go out and live my life the way i should...without regret and without looking back.

You can all thank Mr. Goldberg and Mr. Macelwrath for keeping up enough to think about this stuff and write them down. Thank you sir