i wish i could write something happy

[utbri16]

man today really really sucked. why you ask? im not quite sure. longhorns kicked ass, i got to drive really fast home from austin, i got to see star wars, but for some reason i just dont feel normal. i wish i could be writing happy things in this live journal, im not usually depressed and i am usually the most care free guy in the world. but why are all these little things adding up to one giant shit ball? i keep finding myself cruising along this 'summer' if you want to call it that and its even more upsetting than the end of the school year. i guess home just isnt the place that i thought it was gonna be. i guess i expected this to happen since i left and i knew that nothing was ever gonna be as great as it use to be, but i suppose i just wasnt expecting it. it seems that everyone has taken advantage of college life except me and i keep seeing everyone moving forward while i remain in the same spot. even my friends who arent in college yet still seem to be moving on and enjoying every second of life. why cant i be so lucky? who knows i guess? im already looking forword to going back to austin and starting the next school year off right. i wish i could find one good thing to enjoy about my life right now but im finding it difficult to do that. you know its been a crappy day when star wars cant even put a decent smile on your face.

i hope the rest of yall's posts are less depressing than this