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I'm... Really upset. I wanna thank everyone who gave me hugs and wished me luck today at school. That really meant a lot.
But right now I'm on the verge of tears.
As I was leaving today, Dan screamed to me "Have fun!"
... Are you kidding me? Are you fucking kidding me? I'm leaving tonight, at midnight, to drive to South Dakota straight through without stopping to go to a funeral, and you fucking tell me to have fun? I'm sorry, but that's the most inconsiderate thing to say. You probably don't care though-- you and Mandie both. I loved how when you came out of your class room you just walked right past me. Not even a simple wave or anything.
And now the tears start coming.
I'm really hurt. And you know what? I'm blaming this on myself, for some reason. I was expecting more out of you and Mandie because you're my really good friends that I thought were there for me, but apparently not. I think I'm blaming this on myself because I think I'm being selfish.
I wanted to talk to Eric yesterday and finally... Have a day where I can just sit and talk to him, but he never really came back. He did, but I was already asleep. That kinda hurt too. I'm asking for too much, aren't I?
I'll be back on Monday, everyone. See you then.
But right now I'm on the verge of tears.
As I was leaving today, Dan screamed to me "Have fun!"
... Are you kidding me? Are you fucking kidding me? I'm leaving tonight, at midnight, to drive to South Dakota straight through without stopping to go to a funeral, and you fucking tell me to have fun? I'm sorry, but that's the most inconsiderate thing to say. You probably don't care though-- you and Mandie both. I loved how when you came out of your class room you just walked right past me. Not even a simple wave or anything.
And now the tears start coming.
I'm really hurt. And you know what? I'm blaming this on myself, for some reason. I was expecting more out of you and Mandie because you're my really good friends that I thought were there for me, but apparently not. I think I'm blaming this on myself because I think I'm being selfish.
I wanted to talk to Eric yesterday and finally... Have a day where I can just sit and talk to him, but he never really came back. He did, but I was already asleep. That kinda hurt too. I'm asking for too much, aren't I?
I'll be back on Monday, everyone. See you then.