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Why is it relationships with other people make things so complicated?
Is there no such thing as being friends after it's over, or at least until another person comes into the picture? I just... I hate being a stand-in until somebody better comes a long or until somebody fixes their relationship.
I have feelings. Realize what you're doing hurts me. I exist and breathe and feel pain just like you do. Why is me being there for you being taken advantage of? Why is it when you don't want to have sex with me you don't want to continue a friendship or even attempt to talk to me? Why am I always the one who feels guilty for getting in the way?
I don't ask for this. I just want to be talked to and treated like a normal human being, like you would with any one of your other friends. I miss laughing and having a good time.
I miss having friends--I miss being friends.
I'm silly to think when you call me beautiful, it's a lie, or when you say I have a great personality, it's a lie--I mean, look at me. I'm obviously messed up from this little rant I'm having.
It's silly to think we used to be best friends.