there is always one more fall
Lately I've been pretty damn close to quitting my job. What really set me over was when I had a pack of cigarettes stolen out of my purse on New Years Eve. Now I don't even keep shit in my purse when I go to work because I don't trust people. Do I have a feeling that I know who it is? Yes. Am I gonna say anything and call them out on it? Absolutely not. The night before, Matt did go in my purse and take a cigarette out of my pack and he never gave it back. It doesn't necessarily mean that he would take a whole pack, which is why I don't want to make any accusations. But it also doesn't mean that he wouldn't. I'm just tired of people disrespecting me like that at work. It's completely unnecessary. They addressed the issue at the meeting tonight that I wasn't able to go to because I had to work. So I guess we'll see if things change.
So the whole quitting smoking thing is going really well. It's been a week and I'm doing alright I guess. The cravings aren't as frequent but they're still just as bad. I'm still sort of going through withdraw, although I don't think I should be. Maybe I'm just coming down with something, I guess I'll find out.
I'm irritable as hell, which sucks, but I'm hoping that won't last much longer. It's not making that easy to deal with asshole customers at work.
Last entry I wrote, I was really angry and annoyed and wrong. Things are turning out better. They still suck and that isn't gonna change but I'm glad things worked out the way they did. It's nice to have someone to talk to, especially now.
Unfortunately I can't say the same about other people. It seems that it was really easy for them to write me off which makes me realize that we weren't that good of friends to begin with. I'm not losing much and I guess neither are they, it seems to work out for both parties.
So the whole quitting smoking thing is going really well. It's been a week and I'm doing alright I guess. The cravings aren't as frequent but they're still just as bad. I'm still sort of going through withdraw, although I don't think I should be. Maybe I'm just coming down with something, I guess I'll find out.
I'm irritable as hell, which sucks, but I'm hoping that won't last much longer. It's not making that easy to deal with asshole customers at work.
Last entry I wrote, I was really angry and annoyed and wrong. Things are turning out better. They still suck and that isn't gonna change but I'm glad things worked out the way they did. It's nice to have someone to talk to, especially now.
Unfortunately I can't say the same about other people. It seems that it was really easy for them to write me off which makes me realize that we weren't that good of friends to begin with. I'm not losing much and I guess neither are they, it seems to work out for both parties.