It's not how it used to be...
I'm back in New York. It doesnt feel like home anymore. I love it up here, dont get me wrong- and its cool to see how things have changed since i moved, but something about it just doesnt feel right. Maybe it's because I dont have the same ties with all of my friends anymore. its kinda sad that i moved and the distance killed the friendshsips.. well, some of them were dead before i even left because some people like to start stupid fights and hold grudges and be jealous for the rest of their lives. i found out a few weeks ago that my BEST friend up here has hated since before i moved because shes jealous of me! "everyone payed so much attention to her when she moved here, it was like she stole my friends from me. god, people still talk about and shes been gone 3 years after only being in this school 5 months." yea, that was what she had to say about me to two of my really good friends. I dunno, maybe things will get better when i start seeing more of my friends. I met my baby cousin for the first time yesterday, he is too cute. 16 months old and i swear he's a genius, and he already knows my name! Ricky came and hung out last night.. im not sure what to think of him anymore, ive always known hes crazy and says the strangest thigns, but i dunno, he scares me sometimes.
im supposed to see erin and her boyfriend today. she lives in florida and i havent seen her since she moved down there. ironic.. well, they're in new york this week, so we made plans to def see each other.
i miss my friends. things arent the same without you girls! i wish i had be able to see more of you before i left! i wish i could be in my room waiting for kari to walk through my front door unanounced, with robin sleeping in my bed, and erica and heather on their way. you never realize how good you REALLY have it until you cant. im bored out of my mind right now waiting for things to happen, and im stranded without a car (regardless, i have no idea how to get anywhere out, so even if i car it would be a mute advantage). i dont know what im gonna do in college without you girls around to call any time i feel like and be like "hey, lets go somewhere." i miss our boys too. they can be jerks sometimes, but the truth is, they've got good hearts.. well some of them.. and its fun to be around them, and playing pranks on them. we still have to start scheming our next attack.
oh well, i guess ill go read or listen to music or something until erin calls me. plans for tomorrow are looking gay, i wish i could be there to party it up with my crew! i dont have IM here.. cuz my aunt doesnt have it on her computer and i dont wanna download it cuz she already has problems with viruses, so if i dont talk to you, Happy New Year! and think about me when the ball drops and you're all gettin trashed! love ya guys..
im supposed to see erin and her boyfriend today. she lives in florida and i havent seen her since she moved down there. ironic.. well, they're in new york this week, so we made plans to def see each other.
i miss my friends. things arent the same without you girls! i wish i had be able to see more of you before i left! i wish i could be in my room waiting for kari to walk through my front door unanounced, with robin sleeping in my bed, and erica and heather on their way. you never realize how good you REALLY have it until you cant. im bored out of my mind right now waiting for things to happen, and im stranded without a car (regardless, i have no idea how to get anywhere out, so even if i car it would be a mute advantage). i dont know what im gonna do in college without you girls around to call any time i feel like and be like "hey, lets go somewhere." i miss our boys too. they can be jerks sometimes, but the truth is, they've got good hearts.. well some of them.. and its fun to be around them, and playing pranks on them. we still have to start scheming our next attack.
oh well, i guess ill go read or listen to music or something until erin calls me. plans for tomorrow are looking gay, i wish i could be there to party it up with my crew! i dont have IM here.. cuz my aunt doesnt have it on her computer and i dont wanna download it cuz she already has problems with viruses, so if i dont talk to you, Happy New Year! and think about me when the ball drops and you're all gettin trashed! love ya guys..