Realization
You know... today I FINALLY realized something.
As you all know, I coach soccer for my former High School. I coach the JV team and I have a great time doing it. I get to get some extra excercise, be around the game that I love so much, I get to learn, and I get to teach. All of this is worth it. However, I have been thinking for the last couple of months that something was going to be different about this year. I couldn't quite put my finger on what, there was going to be something. Oh, sure, a lot of kids were going to graduate and I was going to be working with someone new and I was going to have a TON of new 9th graders. That wasn't the issue... it happens every year.
No.
What it came down to is this.
This is going to be the first year that I won't have someone to call after the games, tell them about how it went, and tell them that I care about them.
Yes, it is going to be the first season since I started coaching that Heather won't be there.
It already feels a little bit wierd.
However... in a way, while it bothers me... it also does not. I honestly don't know what I am feeling. I sort of miss that interaction, to be sure. I don't even think that I really miss HER in all of this. Just that interaction. It is actually a very strange feeling and one that I hope will eventually go away.
It is wierd, as I have said. I don't think that I miss her hardly ever any more. Oh... sure... seeing her still hurts quite a bit. But, I am mostly over her.
Wierd.
I guess I just need to figure out all of this fits in.
Any advice would be appreciated.
As you all know, I coach soccer for my former High School. I coach the JV team and I have a great time doing it. I get to get some extra excercise, be around the game that I love so much, I get to learn, and I get to teach. All of this is worth it. However, I have been thinking for the last couple of months that something was going to be different about this year. I couldn't quite put my finger on what, there was going to be something. Oh, sure, a lot of kids were going to graduate and I was going to be working with someone new and I was going to have a TON of new 9th graders. That wasn't the issue... it happens every year.
No.
What it came down to is this.
This is going to be the first year that I won't have someone to call after the games, tell them about how it went, and tell them that I care about them.
Yes, it is going to be the first season since I started coaching that Heather won't be there.
It already feels a little bit wierd.
However... in a way, while it bothers me... it also does not. I honestly don't know what I am feeling. I sort of miss that interaction, to be sure. I don't even think that I really miss HER in all of this. Just that interaction. It is actually a very strange feeling and one that I hope will eventually go away.
It is wierd, as I have said. I don't think that I miss her hardly ever any more. Oh... sure... seeing her still hurts quite a bit. But, I am mostly over her.
Wierd.
I guess I just need to figure out all of this fits in.
Any advice would be appreciated.