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Do her promises of Love and compassion hold true even now? or are they the same as all of the False "hope" that has been given to me. My past few weeks have been weeks of anger, jealousy and disappointments. I dont want that to continue. This has all happend before. All of it. Do I deserve to endure this again? Should I wait for her? I feel that I have given her ample time to do the things that she must now due, if only the past times she had focsed on Us, instead of others. That also holds some truth now. Am I done yet? I dont know yet, but she does. She is the deciding factor in everything now. If anything is going to happen, it will be because she initiated it. If she wants this to be done, then its done. If she wants to make things the way they once were, then she has to do it and convince me. She told me she learned from her mistakes, but now, i believe that thats not true. It seems like she only realizes what she has lost when I say the word forever. This time it will be forever. But forever what? You decide that.