Unit Delimma
I've been in the Army for about a year now, however I've only been with my unit for about 6 months. So far, the experience has not been good. I've said from the beginning that the Army really isn't for me but I was willing to see it through because I did sign a contract but now I wish that I had quit. I can't stand it! Everyone says that it's different in other places, that not every unit is the same and I' sure they're right.The issue that I'm having is that I don't really trust the people in my unit and we're getting ready to deploy. I don't know what to do. I feel that most of these people are sketchy. Even the NCOs the officers.
Like today for example: I've been told up till this point that I would be leaving later in the week for deployment, then today I get a call that there is a possibility that we will be leaving on Sunday. The issue isn't that the date moved up it's that no one bothered to talk to anyone else about the possible move up. We were suppose to have our deployment ceremony and I was suppose to be in it but when I was told this morning that we may be leaving earlier and that my bags had to be at the company today I naturally assumed that my NCOs as well as my First Sergeant knew that I wouldn't be able to attend. Instead what I got was an ass chewing from the First Sergeant for not being there. don't know about the rest of the world but I cannot be in two places at once. Then, he asked why I wasn't in uniform. This was after I was told by my XO on Wednesday that our commander had authorized a four day weekend for those leaving this coming week for Afghanistan.
I just don't understand how piss-poor planning on their part is my fault. I feel like nobody is held accountable unless you're a specialist and below or fucking an NCO. I hate being in the Army! I hate the fact that I have to go to Afghanistan with people that I don't trust. It's onething not to like someone but to feel like you can't trust the people you work with is sad. Now I just wish I had quit in basic, I wish I had never signed that stupid contract, and I wish that I could wakeup from this fucking nightmare.
Like today for example: I've been told up till this point that I would be leaving later in the week for deployment, then today I get a call that there is a possibility that we will be leaving on Sunday. The issue isn't that the date moved up it's that no one bothered to talk to anyone else about the possible move up. We were suppose to have our deployment ceremony and I was suppose to be in it but when I was told this morning that we may be leaving earlier and that my bags had to be at the company today I naturally assumed that my NCOs as well as my First Sergeant knew that I wouldn't be able to attend. Instead what I got was an ass chewing from the First Sergeant for not being there. don't know about the rest of the world but I cannot be in two places at once. Then, he asked why I wasn't in uniform. This was after I was told by my XO on Wednesday that our commander had authorized a four day weekend for those leaving this coming week for Afghanistan.
I just don't understand how piss-poor planning on their part is my fault. I feel like nobody is held accountable unless you're a specialist and below or fucking an NCO. I hate being in the Army! I hate the fact that I have to go to Afghanistan with people that I don't trust. It's onething not to like someone but to feel like you can't trust the people you work with is sad. Now I just wish I had quit in basic, I wish I had never signed that stupid contract, and I wish that I could wakeup from this fucking nightmare.