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Days to bootcamp - forgotten
The days do not matter anymore.
I don't even know how long ago it was when i last updated, This is the life i choose, and this is the life i am starting to love, Everyday working out, twice a day except saturday. I know i have less than one month left. I do not want a going away party, plain and simple. My parents will probably throw something, but i will not allow a party before i go. I am sure that they will set up a open house for all the friends of the family, and of course the friends that i have come to have over the good old days. Out of all of the things that will soon suddenly change there will be always one thing that will not, and i am thankfull for that it will always stay the same - Family. Once u get out of the school days u realize that things change no matter what u do, and how much u want it to stay the same. Friends become lost, and friends come from people that u least expect. I cannot wait for bootcamp, i will be a hard mother fucker while i am there. I have to be something that i am hardly ever, but when something like that rewards it, i must change. I know many things to expect when i leave, and i know many things to expect when i go off after bootcamp to my job training, and i know many things to expect when i get based somewhere in the world, and what to expect if i am given a mission when battle is just a minor detail. These things i am getting molded everyday for, and everyday i work towards to become the master at these.
I just saw the moive " the last samauri ". When i watched it, it was just a older version of what i am going to become, I will get up everyday, and persue the self-mastery it takes to become master and if not perfect at what i do. This is the life i choose and the life i am starting to love. There have been many things that i have loved in my life so far, everything from my family, to certian friends of mine, and even a select few of girls. These are the things that i will fight for. I will fight anyone who seeks to destroy this country, and try to destroy these things that i love. These things i will not need trainging in order to die fighting for. I will take a bullet to any fellow marine, family member, friend or american. This will make bootcamp that much easier. Many people will need to be tought this, not me.
I remember in 7th grade when someone asked me at lunch if i would ever take a bullet for anything in order to save their life, and thinking about it now, i wonder why i even had to think about it. Times have changed and are in order to change once agian, all the people that i have come to know and love will do the exact same thing that i will do, live life. No matter what happens i will be a worrior for these things i love.
Out of the things i love i have to hold in reguard are my fellow marines. I have herd storys and do not doubt that when u are in battle, and any second it can be ended, that u are not fighting for your country, or the things that u love, u fight for the people beside you, for that both of u can once agian see your country and see once agian the things that u love most dearly.
The past of couple of weeks has pushed my mind and body past the limits that i have known. After 3 weeks of pure training, i am able to run 3 miles with out slowing down, i can do 130 sit-ups in 2 minutes, i can do 13 pull-ups, and most of all i find my self starting to love these things that most people find to be torture and punishment. I find my self waking up motivated. I find my self striving for perfection, and i find my self helping those who are not striving for it.
I am starting to see who i really am, I am a perfectionist.
I want to be the best, no matter what it takes.
i want to be the best, no matter what is in the way.
I want to be the best, faliure in this line of work... is not a option. This is why i seek perfection.
So be it, friend no more, so be it, gather the peices, and prepare for war, so be it, settle the score, touch me agian with these words u will hear forever more.
Maybe a post later in the week or month.
always S E M P E R F I
The days do not matter anymore.
I don't even know how long ago it was when i last updated, This is the life i choose, and this is the life i am starting to love, Everyday working out, twice a day except saturday. I know i have less than one month left. I do not want a going away party, plain and simple. My parents will probably throw something, but i will not allow a party before i go. I am sure that they will set up a open house for all the friends of the family, and of course the friends that i have come to have over the good old days. Out of all of the things that will soon suddenly change there will be always one thing that will not, and i am thankfull for that it will always stay the same - Family. Once u get out of the school days u realize that things change no matter what u do, and how much u want it to stay the same. Friends become lost, and friends come from people that u least expect. I cannot wait for bootcamp, i will be a hard mother fucker while i am there. I have to be something that i am hardly ever, but when something like that rewards it, i must change. I know many things to expect when i leave, and i know many things to expect when i go off after bootcamp to my job training, and i know many things to expect when i get based somewhere in the world, and what to expect if i am given a mission when battle is just a minor detail. These things i am getting molded everyday for, and everyday i work towards to become the master at these.
I just saw the moive " the last samauri ". When i watched it, it was just a older version of what i am going to become, I will get up everyday, and persue the self-mastery it takes to become master and if not perfect at what i do. This is the life i choose and the life i am starting to love. There have been many things that i have loved in my life so far, everything from my family, to certian friends of mine, and even a select few of girls. These are the things that i will fight for. I will fight anyone who seeks to destroy this country, and try to destroy these things that i love. These things i will not need trainging in order to die fighting for. I will take a bullet to any fellow marine, family member, friend or american. This will make bootcamp that much easier. Many people will need to be tought this, not me.
I remember in 7th grade when someone asked me at lunch if i would ever take a bullet for anything in order to save their life, and thinking about it now, i wonder why i even had to think about it. Times have changed and are in order to change once agian, all the people that i have come to know and love will do the exact same thing that i will do, live life. No matter what happens i will be a worrior for these things i love.
Out of the things i love i have to hold in reguard are my fellow marines. I have herd storys and do not doubt that when u are in battle, and any second it can be ended, that u are not fighting for your country, or the things that u love, u fight for the people beside you, for that both of u can once agian see your country and see once agian the things that u love most dearly.
The past of couple of weeks has pushed my mind and body past the limits that i have known. After 3 weeks of pure training, i am able to run 3 miles with out slowing down, i can do 130 sit-ups in 2 minutes, i can do 13 pull-ups, and most of all i find my self starting to love these things that most people find to be torture and punishment. I find my self waking up motivated. I find my self striving for perfection, and i find my self helping those who are not striving for it.
I am starting to see who i really am, I am a perfectionist.
I want to be the best, no matter what it takes.
i want to be the best, no matter what is in the way.
I want to be the best, faliure in this line of work... is not a option. This is why i seek perfection.
So be it, friend no more, so be it, gather the peices, and prepare for war, so be it, settle the score, touch me agian with these words u will hear forever more.
Maybe a post later in the week or month.
always S E M P E R F I