So I need a little help.
These days, I have no faith in my ability to play Inara well, or even averagely, which is why I haven't been. Nor do I have any idea how to fix this problem, short of dropping her and letting someone else pick her up. I really hate to do that before having made any kind of real effort to FIX the problems, though
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well, I liked her. I like her. I like her because she's classy but has sex for money and yet somehow makes it seem like it's not a trashy thing to do and she's running around with the Serenity gang and you'd think she wouldn't fit in with them, but she fits in with them so well that when she's not there, something's missing. And I like having a character who likes people but isn't a godmoder (DEATH) and back when I first had her, I really, really loved playing her.
That said.
The idea that I made her into a weak, dependent character just about broke my heart. I felt like I'd betrayed her and betrayed Joss and betrayed my canonmates. I almost feel like I don't have the right to fix her, I made such a horrible mess. And I feel like I put Mal's player in a really bad position with demanding a lot of her time and attention when I know perfectly well he's a difficult character for her to play.
I feel okay about playing her as long as I'm not doing anything that even remotely touches on her relationship with Mal. They've spoken twice since I came back from my week off playing, and both threads were very short. She never mentions him to other characters, and if she does, I'm very careful to have her STOP talking about him immediately. She's started referring to herself as a Companion again, and I'm now working with the assumption that she will not, in fact, retire.
There's other stuff, but I don't really want to go into it ATM. (I have to go, aha.) What's your e-mail?
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