i never write in my lj anymore
my new job is awesome, i work with some of the most interesting and talented people i have ever met before. things are going well, and my clientele is building up from nothing. i felt like a shitty hairdresser for working at hairplus, so i moved on (which i was planning to anyway.) i feel like i got fucked at hollywood vampires so i cant go back there, not with what happened.
i read this book called 'rock and a hard place' and it really rekindled the love that i felt was fading from my everyday actions and words. its so important to love the people around you- i cant stress it enough. if i die tonight or tomorrow or 3 days from now i want to be sure that everyone knows that i love them and that i wouldnt be where or who i am without them. i lost my grandma a few months ago and all it did was make me miss my grandpa more... is that weird?
the day i was helping my aunt and mom clean out my grandmas belongings i found his work ID from union carbide and lost it. i cried uncontrolably for about 20 minutes. i wish he was still around, even though i know he wouldnt approve of my appearance in any way. but my insides are good.
i swear.
i finally realized that the people who dont like me, dont know me. and that if they dont want to know me, they can go fuck themselves. i will do anything for my friends, you need it, i got it (or what i can give to the best of my ablilities). i no longer try to prove myself to anyone.
there is a wonderful guy in my life right now, whether it works out or not, im better for knowing him.
so i guess that was an update?
i read this book called 'rock and a hard place' and it really rekindled the love that i felt was fading from my everyday actions and words. its so important to love the people around you- i cant stress it enough. if i die tonight or tomorrow or 3 days from now i want to be sure that everyone knows that i love them and that i wouldnt be where or who i am without them. i lost my grandma a few months ago and all it did was make me miss my grandpa more... is that weird?
the day i was helping my aunt and mom clean out my grandmas belongings i found his work ID from union carbide and lost it. i cried uncontrolably for about 20 minutes. i wish he was still around, even though i know he wouldnt approve of my appearance in any way. but my insides are good.
i swear.
i finally realized that the people who dont like me, dont know me. and that if they dont want to know me, they can go fuck themselves. i will do anything for my friends, you need it, i got it (or what i can give to the best of my ablilities). i no longer try to prove myself to anyone.
there is a wonderful guy in my life right now, whether it works out or not, im better for knowing him.
so i guess that was an update?