My mind finally gave up.
On me. I woke up today crying and crying and crying for no reason. So I didn't go to school for awhile. I just cried for more than an hour. I finally calmed down and fell asleep. I barely slept last night. I think it's pretty clear that I'm not okay anymore. I thought about asking my mom if I could go talk to someone, but I'm way to against spilling my guts to someone I don't even know. And I always thought "If I'm ever fucked up, I'll always know exactly how to fix it." But, this didn't just happen, it's been happening for months now. It finally just broke out and I'm a screwed up mess. There is just shit in my mind I'm way to afraid to say. It all goes back so fucking far and shit, I don't even know where to begin. I just want to come out on top and be what I used to be. I want to be okay again, and I want to be happy and crazy. I dont even see why I write this shit in here, no one reads it.