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Well... I'm done with classes until finals.. Just have to go act interested and maybe take some notes. Somewhat of a good feeling considering the stress I've been through this semester. So the next few days I'll be quite relaxed and just going through the motions to rebuild my energy for finals.
I realized something this weekend. At church, I know I rarely ever go and it took everything I had to go this past weekend; I learned that I tend to hold onto things that make me bitter or angry way to long. I've always known it to be a problem and something that I should work on but it really is a struggle. When something crawls under my skin it just eats at me and makes me even more angered. I've always had one solution and it was to either remove the situation or me from the situation. I'm starting to find that the older I get the harder it is to run away or put off something. Maybe, my theory of if I just get away from it for long enough it will go away, was completely wrong. In fact, it is wrong. The only question now is; where do I go from here? I honestly don't know. I just can't swallow my pride in some places to face and try to resolve certain issues. Call me stubborn or even a coward, but I'm sure there is a situation in everyone's life where they would do anything else than face it head on.
I just pray that one day I can figure out how to handle things correctly and to bite my tongue.
I realized something this weekend. At church, I know I rarely ever go and it took everything I had to go this past weekend; I learned that I tend to hold onto things that make me bitter or angry way to long. I've always known it to be a problem and something that I should work on but it really is a struggle. When something crawls under my skin it just eats at me and makes me even more angered. I've always had one solution and it was to either remove the situation or me from the situation. I'm starting to find that the older I get the harder it is to run away or put off something. Maybe, my theory of if I just get away from it for long enough it will go away, was completely wrong. In fact, it is wrong. The only question now is; where do I go from here? I honestly don't know. I just can't swallow my pride in some places to face and try to resolve certain issues. Call me stubborn or even a coward, but I'm sure there is a situation in everyone's life where they would do anything else than face it head on.
I just pray that one day I can figure out how to handle things correctly and to bite my tongue.