water cooler logic
Seriously…Wednesday was just unnecessary… my day began fine, got to work early…sporting my favorite suit…it was supposed to be ordinary…the treasure troll lady from the mail room came around as usual, I continued to give my new girl smile throughout the day…met some of the guys that worked there…but what I didn’t expect was the water cooler bashing session that occurred with some stupid chicks from the billing department (im from the ortho department)…to keep it short, I found out from an older friend (who I knew prior to starting my job) that these girls thought I was some “unintelligent Caucasian blonde bimbo dropout who most likely works there to support the child im probably going to be pregnant with”…what the fuck? Where? Why? Hello? It was seriously just sickening…because I was white and blonde they assumed that about me…hello just because you appear to speak Spanish doesn’t mean to eat burritos or wear terrible lip liner (which they did)….just because you work here, and you do have two children and you are 20 with no high school degree (which is true of one of them) doesn’t mean I have the right to talk shit on you…its just sad...that’s all…I thought this shit was done with….its like a bad day of high school…so I continued on with my day and smiled at them…anticipating what I was going to do after work…will picked me up and we went to his goalie training…which was important to me because it’s a way for me to show my support (1) because im leaving and I only have so many opportunities (2) because it means a lot to me to see him do well at something he is passionate about….anyways went there and went to watch rehearsal for his little sisters’ play (well worth it, the three year old munchkins were adorable)
Afterwards I hung out with my two girlies...but it wasn’t what I really needed…....the topic of conversation the entire car ride (out of concern on their part) wasn’t what I wanted to hear about after the day I had….i have an opinion about a certain relationship in my life that I cant change…(((yes its hard to see me be treated like this, I know he cares you guys... but I have no choice and I cant change anything in 20 days….!))) There is just so much to consider…do I work though my mom is sick, do I stay home and help her…do I anticipate dc (for so many reasons) or do I dwell and get my self depressed on what and who im leaving (there are so many reasons to stay) every day lately feels like a guilt trip coming from every angle…I don’t know but honestly life is good i guess... I cant complain…its just emotionally draining…so whats the logic in this story…avoid the water cooler on hott days!
Afterwards I hung out with my two girlies...but it wasn’t what I really needed…....the topic of conversation the entire car ride (out of concern on their part) wasn’t what I wanted to hear about after the day I had….i have an opinion about a certain relationship in my life that I cant change…(((yes its hard to see me be treated like this, I know he cares you guys... but I have no choice and I cant change anything in 20 days….!))) There is just so much to consider…do I work though my mom is sick, do I stay home and help her…do I anticipate dc (for so many reasons) or do I dwell and get my self depressed on what and who im leaving (there are so many reasons to stay) every day lately feels like a guilt trip coming from every angle…I don’t know but honestly life is good i guess... I cant complain…its just emotionally draining…so whats the logic in this story…avoid the water cooler on hott days!