I can do this, thanks to my friends.

[usedtothepain]

I can clean up my act.
I can be more responsible.
I can pull myself together.
I can be mentally and emotionally stable.
I can find happiness.
and I can hopefully pass a drug test for the state and not go to jail or rehab.

God I hope all of those are true.

With the help of my loving friends many of them seem to not look so difficult anymore.

Thank you, my friends... most of you know I love you... if not, just ask.

I appreciate so much more than I really let you all be aware of.
I am nothing without any of you.

Vic, Renee, Shawna, Sarah, all Rachels, Mab( if that is what you want to be called), Spencer, Stephanie, Amanda, Lauren D, Anna, Becky, Jessica, Brittney, Miranda, Laura Dison (whom i wouldn't expect to be reading about me these days but will always love just the same), Zach, Tim, Tina, Mandy, Julian, Robert, Brooke, Boots, Poss, Swingset, Kat, Sean, Katie... you all make me not give up on life and actually want to leave my apartment each and every day. I love and appreciate you all even if you are getting on my nerves every once in awhile... you have all inspired me or made me stronger or wiser at some point in my life.

Thanks.

-Mattbrown