"reminders of the youth we lost"
so i've come to enter a new chapter in my life: my first goddamn accident. dear god, i'm so shook up still...the bad part is it wasn't the best circumstances but then again it could've gotten worse...oh my god, it could've gotten so much worse (trust me, when you're there for 2 hours, you got time to think). here's the story:
so, as everyone knows, it was raining hard as hell today and with my luck, i left work right when it was pretty nasty. it was a little hard to see and i was having a hard time as it was with my lack of sleep but i could still drive. well, i get to the busy ass intersection that links rittiman and gibbs-sprawl and the light turns red and i see it and i put on the brakes but when i did my wheel started freakin out and i couldn't control the car, so i tried braking harder but it only got worse and i pretty much hydroplaned and hit this lady that was turning. luckily, i was cautious enough to drive under the speed limit because of rain and luckily i only hit her doing 30 with brakes applied. and it was right in the goddamn middle of the intersection and all eyes were on me. i felt like shit.
i came out to see if she was ok and she said yeah and called the cops and just waited. i was so shook up, i just sat there in the middle of 5 o'clock traffic...just thinking. what was worse that i had to call my dad and tell him even after he lectured me about how expensive insurance was going to go up if i wrecked and wal-fucking-lah: there i am. so he came and gave me my insurance and he looked dissappointed but i think he understood what happened.
later on, this really cool guy (my age) came by and checked to see if i was ok. he had gotten into an accident too, haha. we just hung out and talked for a while as we waited for cops and i felt bad because he didn't even want to come to san antonio, he just came to visit his sister and was there for like 30 minutes and had to go to laredo to meet family and go to a trip to mexico...but not happening anymore. just shared some other stories. helped calm my nerves and pass the time. [there was one funny part: the cop that came to give us the report was the same fucking cop that was at the accident clarissa had, hahaha. i think he recognized me because he gave me a look, haha.]
the worst parts were my thoughts though...i've driven for a month. i've gone to downtown, houston, austin, all these places and i haven't gotten so much as a ticket but all of a sudden, mother nature decides to PMS on me and i get into an accident, a completely avoidable and unneccessary one.
then i looked at her car and they got worse. her whoooole left front side was smashed in completely. the part that protects the wheel:gone. my car? perfectly fine. only the bumper hung a little and i thought: "dear god, what if she had gone a little farther or what if i had gone faster. i could've directly hit her and possibly killed her." the ride home was such a bummer. i didn't even turn on the radio. i wanted complete silence. i was so paranoid. i'd brake before i even see lights, haha. i'd go below the speed limits. it wasn't great.
oh, thanks to everyone that called or stopped by to check on me. i appreciate it. and thanks bernell for actually going there and checking on me. i got great friends.
yep yep. thats it. supposed to go clubbing but i don't know. we'll see. bye everyone.
so, as everyone knows, it was raining hard as hell today and with my luck, i left work right when it was pretty nasty. it was a little hard to see and i was having a hard time as it was with my lack of sleep but i could still drive. well, i get to the busy ass intersection that links rittiman and gibbs-sprawl and the light turns red and i see it and i put on the brakes but when i did my wheel started freakin out and i couldn't control the car, so i tried braking harder but it only got worse and i pretty much hydroplaned and hit this lady that was turning. luckily, i was cautious enough to drive under the speed limit because of rain and luckily i only hit her doing 30 with brakes applied. and it was right in the goddamn middle of the intersection and all eyes were on me. i felt like shit.
i came out to see if she was ok and she said yeah and called the cops and just waited. i was so shook up, i just sat there in the middle of 5 o'clock traffic...just thinking. what was worse that i had to call my dad and tell him even after he lectured me about how expensive insurance was going to go up if i wrecked and wal-fucking-lah: there i am. so he came and gave me my insurance and he looked dissappointed but i think he understood what happened.
later on, this really cool guy (my age) came by and checked to see if i was ok. he had gotten into an accident too, haha. we just hung out and talked for a while as we waited for cops and i felt bad because he didn't even want to come to san antonio, he just came to visit his sister and was there for like 30 minutes and had to go to laredo to meet family and go to a trip to mexico...but not happening anymore. just shared some other stories. helped calm my nerves and pass the time. [there was one funny part: the cop that came to give us the report was the same fucking cop that was at the accident clarissa had, hahaha. i think he recognized me because he gave me a look, haha.]
the worst parts were my thoughts though...i've driven for a month. i've gone to downtown, houston, austin, all these places and i haven't gotten so much as a ticket but all of a sudden, mother nature decides to PMS on me and i get into an accident, a completely avoidable and unneccessary one.
then i looked at her car and they got worse. her whoooole left front side was smashed in completely. the part that protects the wheel:gone. my car? perfectly fine. only the bumper hung a little and i thought: "dear god, what if she had gone a little farther or what if i had gone faster. i could've directly hit her and possibly killed her." the ride home was such a bummer. i didn't even turn on the radio. i wanted complete silence. i was so paranoid. i'd brake before i even see lights, haha. i'd go below the speed limits. it wasn't great.
oh, thanks to everyone that called or stopped by to check on me. i appreciate it. and thanks bernell for actually going there and checking on me. i got great friends.
yep yep. thats it. supposed to go clubbing but i don't know. we'll see. bye everyone.