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oh my god...today was the last day of school, and i'm just numb. though its more or less my brain just hasn't processed the necessary emotions yet. i'm conflicted: i'm relieved it's all over yet at the same time i'm disheartened at the fact that i won't have the opportunity to routinely see the same people i care about anymore. not just that but now i'm on my own, after this summer, there is no state requirement mandating i show up to college or face legal consenquences. in other words, i'm free and that frightens me because i've become dependent on having guidelines and all of a sudden i'm all by my lonesome.
today didn't feel like the last day of school though, its probably because i have so much to worry about. aka obligations and graduation. its just that even though "school-ing" is over, i still have stress regarding school and they both weigh heavily on my mind and well as of now i owe $150 to Judson because the fat book bitch can;t do her job, haha. so thats always great. i realize it also didn't feel like "the last day" because there was no heartfelt good byes or tears or anything, everyone i spoke to made it seem like another day and so did i. it was odd. sure some people gave me a hug or made an effort to say their final good byes but it felt more like we were leaving for a holiday then for good. i don't know, maybe i'm just disillusioned.
as for the events of today, it's depressing now that i recall it. especially jessica and i's "last walk" together from pre-cal. it made both of us sad and it was one of the only times during the day i realized things were going to be different("until may 30 through june 4", haha). the rest of my classes were just normal. but they just had this awkward aura around everything because my friends and i both knew it's one of the last times we're going to see each other but at the same time we couldn't express it. sad sad times. the only thing left to look forward to is graduation and i accept it with open arms. i'm gonna miss everyone.
good times good times.
isn't she beauteeful? remember: you and i-south padre. :D
check out the tattoo job by jessica, haha. i'm officially a bad ass.
one of the few classes i never hated...
wow yara...4+ years and still going. thats impressive
random pic. still a good memory though
gotta love those non-productive study sessions
haha just to think, i'll probably see him everyday this summer.
[edit] got back from the "huge"(100 or so people?) senior night party that got raided, haha. running from the cops was probably the most exciting thing that happened last night, haha. oh and i got 12 hours of sleep. mmm sleeep. now on to the rest of my day bye guys.
today didn't feel like the last day of school though, its probably because i have so much to worry about. aka obligations and graduation. its just that even though "school-ing" is over, i still have stress regarding school and they both weigh heavily on my mind and well as of now i owe $150 to Judson because the fat book bitch can;t do her job, haha. so thats always great. i realize it also didn't feel like "the last day" because there was no heartfelt good byes or tears or anything, everyone i spoke to made it seem like another day and so did i. it was odd. sure some people gave me a hug or made an effort to say their final good byes but it felt more like we were leaving for a holiday then for good. i don't know, maybe i'm just disillusioned.
as for the events of today, it's depressing now that i recall it. especially jessica and i's "last walk" together from pre-cal. it made both of us sad and it was one of the only times during the day i realized things were going to be different("until may 30 through june 4", haha). the rest of my classes were just normal. but they just had this awkward aura around everything because my friends and i both knew it's one of the last times we're going to see each other but at the same time we couldn't express it. sad sad times. the only thing left to look forward to is graduation and i accept it with open arms. i'm gonna miss everyone.
good times good times.
isn't she beauteeful? remember: you and i-south padre. :D
check out the tattoo job by jessica, haha. i'm officially a bad ass.
one of the few classes i never hated...
wow yara...4+ years and still going. thats impressive
random pic. still a good memory though
gotta love those non-productive study sessions
haha just to think, i'll probably see him everyday this summer.
[edit] got back from the "huge"(100 or so people?) senior night party that got raided, haha. running from the cops was probably the most exciting thing that happened last night, haha. oh and i got 12 hours of sleep. mmm sleeep. now on to the rest of my day bye guys.