ugh....
k so i've been having all these messed up dreams lately i dunno theyre bout past stuff & past feelings & now robbies gone... & that kills me enough but davids glowing happiness over it im sure..so im stuck wondering if hes ever gonna get on again is he ok ...its killing me... im so phocking miserable... then me and david fight bout me getting online...which is soo phocked up in itself.. yeah lauren hes full of shit... hes jealous & wants me 247 hes gotten to telling me to shut the hell up...im sure next will come physical contact & god am i waiting for it....thats horrible... i know but i just have a bad feeling lately prolly just me overfrustrating myself... u know how that goes... i feel like ive got nobody & im surrounded by ppl 25 hrs a day... phocked up im sure of it tho i mean i had robbie & we were starting to b able to deal...& now im all alone again... so dreamwise things r good lol... i dreamt bout comrade the other night.. i was really happy but no comment!!!! then i dreamt all this not so good stuff & im now im looking for a bus... & wishin i was 70 so i could just die...well going now....
cherry
cherry