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so alot has happened.. Erik and i had a talk the other day well it was actually a long time ago that we had this talk.. and well he's not looking for anything serious right now. We still have kept hanging out.. at least once every week. He has been inviting me to cups of coffee... and well were not in the band anymore. He is teaching me guitar..though. ugh idk he's just so confusing. At first he tells me all of this stuff..and he kisses me and stuff. Then he's not looking for anything..only wants to have fun.. and that maybe we shouldnt kiss anymore. Then we keep hanging out..and a couple weeks later..like 2 its ok if we kiss again..and he's the one to make the first move again. blah. I thought i was fine.. and i actually was after our talk. I was starting to not like him anymore, but it is starting over again..and i know this. It was cause he has kept IMing me everyday.. and he is the one to ask to hang out.. and just the way he is. He challenges me.. in some ways other guys havent. Its like i want to only see him as a friend..but its hard for me..i've just never had a guy treat me like he has. Usually the guys i hang out with..its like every other month or so.. or like 2 times a month, but with him its like every week. Its going to be his bday this thursday..i might see him then. And i also invited him to this party on saturday..i might see him then also. I dont know..this whole things is confusing..