i'd like to close my eyes and go numb, but there's a cold wind coming from the high rise...
our intruit we're taught to deny, and our soul we're told is for selling...
today was full of many surprises! in first i took a quiz and i got a C :'( but ms.weintraub said i can make it up and get some extra credit :-D in 3rd we got to go to some black history month assembly and it was totally kick ass! i sat next to melissa and angie and the whole time we were laughing! yeah laughing, bcuz half the people on stage looked like they didnt know what they were doing...oh yeah and also there was this one WHITE guy, like white as hell...whiter than me actually and thats white....anyway he was up there dancing and the assembly was supposed to be for black history month! LOL it was too damn funny...anyway then something in 4th happened with dayreem and im going to explain. so i walk into the classroom with henry like normal and i see her crying... well she sits in front of me so i go up to her and i ask her whats wrong...but, she doesnt respond and shuts her eyes with her hands..so then i decide she doesnt want to talk and i give her a hug and sit down. then ms. miller sees dayreem and starts whispering stuff into her ear...well since i sit behind i heard her ask dayreem what was wrong. the rest was totally unclear but then all of a sudden, ms. miller said dayreem wanted to talk to me outside...in my head i was thinking "me wtf???" but at the same time i felt totally special, important for once. i mean i know im one of her friends, but i didnt know she trusted me enough to actually come to me with her problems... so we go outside and dayreem is crying hardcore. this time i felt like my insides were cringing since i hate to see people crying. anyway i ask her whats wrong and just as i do, a teacher in the hallway sees us. the teacher asks her whats wrong but dayreem doesnt answer. the teacher then tells me to take her to the bathroom and talk so i do...as we walk in i finally got the chance to see what was going through her mind. she tells me all this stuff about how her dad left her mother and ever since she hasnt been the same...she then said shes been thinking about suicide for the past 2 weeks without anyone knowing. this is exactly how i responded "dayreem, life is full of obstacles and we just have to make the best of things and deal. im new to this school and yeah i have a lot of friends but it wasnt easy at first. the first day of school i came home in tears because i was shocked at the new experience. now im used to it and i love it. things take time and all wounds will heal. for now, im here for u and i always will be. dayreem im not going anywhere and if u do and decide to kill yourself, i dont know what i would do..." then she said "luly i love you" and she gave me a hug and started crying on my shoulder. at that moment, i knew that dayreem was just like me, someone in need of a helping hand and i was there to give it to her. it was beautiful. well we then walked back to class and she started crying again...then the thought of her wanting to commit suicide scared me. i went up to ms. miller and told her that dayreem needed to go to the counselor immediately for personal reasons. dayreem left to the counselor but then and there i knew she was going to need to talk to someone higher than me even though im one of her most trusted friends. she needs help and im glad i could be the first to recognize it...anyway after that whole incident everyone in the class was like looking at me and asking me all these questions which got me upset!! its none of anyone's business...later in 6th i saw angel but he walked too fast in order for me to say anything...now im at home chilling and im gonna call dayreem soon to see if shes okie. well i think im gonna go lay down on my bed awhile so toodles<3
no shroud, no shadow to step onto,
a naked soul laid bare for all to see,
stripped of all protection,
i am this and it is me...
today was full of many surprises! in first i took a quiz and i got a C :'( but ms.weintraub said i can make it up and get some extra credit :-D in 3rd we got to go to some black history month assembly and it was totally kick ass! i sat next to melissa and angie and the whole time we were laughing! yeah laughing, bcuz half the people on stage looked like they didnt know what they were doing...oh yeah and also there was this one WHITE guy, like white as hell...whiter than me actually and thats white....anyway he was up there dancing and the assembly was supposed to be for black history month! LOL it was too damn funny...anyway then something in 4th happened with dayreem and im going to explain. so i walk into the classroom with henry like normal and i see her crying... well she sits in front of me so i go up to her and i ask her whats wrong...but, she doesnt respond and shuts her eyes with her hands..so then i decide she doesnt want to talk and i give her a hug and sit down. then ms. miller sees dayreem and starts whispering stuff into her ear...well since i sit behind i heard her ask dayreem what was wrong. the rest was totally unclear but then all of a sudden, ms. miller said dayreem wanted to talk to me outside...in my head i was thinking "me wtf???" but at the same time i felt totally special, important for once. i mean i know im one of her friends, but i didnt know she trusted me enough to actually come to me with her problems... so we go outside and dayreem is crying hardcore. this time i felt like my insides were cringing since i hate to see people crying. anyway i ask her whats wrong and just as i do, a teacher in the hallway sees us. the teacher asks her whats wrong but dayreem doesnt answer. the teacher then tells me to take her to the bathroom and talk so i do...as we walk in i finally got the chance to see what was going through her mind. she tells me all this stuff about how her dad left her mother and ever since she hasnt been the same...she then said shes been thinking about suicide for the past 2 weeks without anyone knowing. this is exactly how i responded "dayreem, life is full of obstacles and we just have to make the best of things and deal. im new to this school and yeah i have a lot of friends but it wasnt easy at first. the first day of school i came home in tears because i was shocked at the new experience. now im used to it and i love it. things take time and all wounds will heal. for now, im here for u and i always will be. dayreem im not going anywhere and if u do and decide to kill yourself, i dont know what i would do..." then she said "luly i love you" and she gave me a hug and started crying on my shoulder. at that moment, i knew that dayreem was just like me, someone in need of a helping hand and i was there to give it to her. it was beautiful. well we then walked back to class and she started crying again...then the thought of her wanting to commit suicide scared me. i went up to ms. miller and told her that dayreem needed to go to the counselor immediately for personal reasons. dayreem left to the counselor but then and there i knew she was going to need to talk to someone higher than me even though im one of her most trusted friends. she needs help and im glad i could be the first to recognize it...anyway after that whole incident everyone in the class was like looking at me and asking me all these questions which got me upset!! its none of anyone's business...later in 6th i saw angel but he walked too fast in order for me to say anything...now im at home chilling and im gonna call dayreem soon to see if shes okie. well i think im gonna go lay down on my bed awhile so toodles<3
no shroud, no shadow to step onto,
a naked soul laid bare for all to see,
stripped of all protection,
i am this and it is me...