leave me in my sick, sad, little world...
focus, im trying to find my light, repeated...
well today was ok...i got a rose (not from someone i expected), some cards (from friends), and a box of chocolates. god, i hate days like today. they are really depressing. but the good thing is that at least i know someone cares about me and is willing to spend valentines with me :D...im referring to jasmine since she calls me every damn day for no good reason and i am spending maybe half of the day with her. hmmm oh yeah! ms. webb wants me to start applying to colleges so im going on a couple of sites she recommended. im most likely going to end up in FIU althought my goal is to go to UM...:'( yeah it sucks but my parents aren't going to pay 35,000 dollars a year just because its a private college. anyway! yeah once again my dad is being an asshole and is making me feel really bad about myself. but hey, im not the only person that he does it to (my mom too)...my brother is like his freaking slave though so he "adores" him...:-( so yeah did i mention tomorrow is gonna suck balls for me? lol yeah im pretty disappointed but oh well... i guess what i want is too much to ask for :'( i mean yeah, today everyone got gifts, even i did! but that doesnt matter to me. what really matters is spending valentines with someone i care about like nelson. i could get a million gifts in the world and i would still be as morose. oh well i always get screwed over :-( well i need to go now and change the bird cage...yew...toodles<3
well today was ok...i got a rose (not from someone i expected), some cards (from friends), and a box of chocolates. god, i hate days like today. they are really depressing. but the good thing is that at least i know someone cares about me and is willing to spend valentines with me :D...im referring to jasmine since she calls me every damn day for no good reason and i am spending maybe half of the day with her. hmmm oh yeah! ms. webb wants me to start applying to colleges so im going on a couple of sites she recommended. im most likely going to end up in FIU althought my goal is to go to UM...:'( yeah it sucks but my parents aren't going to pay 35,000 dollars a year just because its a private college. anyway! yeah once again my dad is being an asshole and is making me feel really bad about myself. but hey, im not the only person that he does it to (my mom too)...my brother is like his freaking slave though so he "adores" him...:-( so yeah did i mention tomorrow is gonna suck balls for me? lol yeah im pretty disappointed but oh well... i guess what i want is too much to ask for :'( i mean yeah, today everyone got gifts, even i did! but that doesnt matter to me. what really matters is spending valentines with someone i care about like nelson. i could get a million gifts in the world and i would still be as morose. oh well i always get screwed over :-( well i need to go now and change the bird cage...yew...toodles<3