one of you has read this before. thought I'd post it on here, but it's shorter, and a tad different

[usedbacon]

Love. It's more than a thought. More than an action. More than words. It's something uncontrollable. Something that can make you fell so great. Something that can tear you to pieces. Is it a want? Is it a need? A little of both I say. More so need. It's so terrible that you can love someone so much and not receive the same, but I guess that's how it has to be. It's so terrible, it seems, this always happens to me, but I guess that's how it has to be. It's sad my friendships with girls are flawed due to my attachment. Because I feel for some of them more than friends. I once thought it was ridiculous that love was associated with the heart. Lately, I've realized why. In your mind you know what needs to be done to save a friendship, but your feelings won't let you do it. It seems feelings aren't controlled by the mind, but by something else. True feelings don't change in an instant, because then, they were never real anyway. If I could take back everything between me and you, there's no way in hell I would change anything. The time we've had has been so great, and I still love you so much for it.

I really wish I could be with you. I know your feelings for me have changed... I know I'm going to continue to love you. I really wish I could control my feelings, for the both of us. I'm so happy when I'm around you. I guess this is the price I pay for the loss of control. I never thought I would be the one to screw it up. I never want to let you down or have you go. I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for my thoughts. I'm sorry for my actions. I'm sorry for my feelings. I hope you know, I still absolutely LOVE you.

This isn't the end, kiddo.