whats wrong baby
Lately everything has been alright and lately everything doesnt seem so bad,
But lately has seen me trying to forget about you.
And I can't.
David is a great help, he takes my mind off things, distracts me, makes me feel wanted - if only it is for a short while. I can pretend but feel nothing. I feel like a user.
We've been loading up on loads of sweeties, super noodles - eaten with chop sticks. And hours and hours of the oc - series 1 (so far)
Last Thursday was something to be desired. We'll start on the Wednesday - Wee Lynnie had her 18th and at night she and my sister had their wee prom. Both looked absolutly gorgeous.
Because of the lack of the usual Scottish weather - we had a bbq on Thurs for Lynnie bum; champagne - white and rosy - are my new favourite drinks. Coutless glasses and some white wine and I was away with it. Wee walk up to Dixies then danced the night away - or so I can imagine. Surprise kisses from someone which was a misktake and walking back to his, gettin driven home at half 3 when it was light. Remembering all this in the morning.
Friday - rough. Chatlheraux sunbathing. Trip to Lanark and bought old sweeties. Then later thats when my oc craze started.
Saturday was a re-enactment of Thursday - almost. This time for wee Scott. BBQ as Nivs. This time morgans spiced, blackcurrant and lemonade. The tightest whitest jeans ever and a few stains - coutless trips into the kitchen on my behalf. Thinking of a boy. Back to Dixies - this time got a wee lift. Dancing the night away again with my Lynn. This time making it home straight from Saharah, avec David. Which turned out to - be not the way I had expected. Crying.
Overall weekend Fantastic but expensivo.
Shopping avec ma soeur - good fun.
Shopping the next day with ma soeur, Lynnie and David - good fun. Lynn picked up a "Mr7" Nats and I lovely bikinis. David prob had never experienced a day like it or will ever in the future.
Body shop meeting at night with Lynn - think will def join.
Hair dyed and slightly cut yesterday has left me looking a bit like the german flag stroke a cat/tiger thing.
Party tonight - amazing dress. Will have to sort out my hair. Im thinking black all over.
Lately Iv missed you and thought what did you see in me then. I wasn't even nice but inside I was, and I put you through some things which must have scared you and thats where I went wrong. I'd say I'm better now. I'v chanaged. I wish I could tell you, make you believe me, and have me back.
Somethings don't end up the way you want/should.
I'm sorry.
But lately has seen me trying to forget about you.
And I can't.
David is a great help, he takes my mind off things, distracts me, makes me feel wanted - if only it is for a short while. I can pretend but feel nothing. I feel like a user.
We've been loading up on loads of sweeties, super noodles - eaten with chop sticks. And hours and hours of the oc - series 1 (so far)
Last Thursday was something to be desired. We'll start on the Wednesday - Wee Lynnie had her 18th and at night she and my sister had their wee prom. Both looked absolutly gorgeous.
Because of the lack of the usual Scottish weather - we had a bbq on Thurs for Lynnie bum; champagne - white and rosy - are my new favourite drinks. Coutless glasses and some white wine and I was away with it. Wee walk up to Dixies then danced the night away - or so I can imagine. Surprise kisses from someone which was a misktake and walking back to his, gettin driven home at half 3 when it was light. Remembering all this in the morning.
Friday - rough. Chatlheraux sunbathing. Trip to Lanark and bought old sweeties. Then later thats when my oc craze started.
Saturday was a re-enactment of Thursday - almost. This time for wee Scott. BBQ as Nivs. This time morgans spiced, blackcurrant and lemonade. The tightest whitest jeans ever and a few stains - coutless trips into the kitchen on my behalf. Thinking of a boy. Back to Dixies - this time got a wee lift. Dancing the night away again with my Lynn. This time making it home straight from Saharah, avec David. Which turned out to - be not the way I had expected. Crying.
Overall weekend Fantastic but expensivo.
Shopping avec ma soeur - good fun.
Shopping the next day with ma soeur, Lynnie and David - good fun. Lynn picked up a "Mr7" Nats and I lovely bikinis. David prob had never experienced a day like it or will ever in the future.
Body shop meeting at night with Lynn - think will def join.
Hair dyed and slightly cut yesterday has left me looking a bit like the german flag stroke a cat/tiger thing.
Party tonight - amazing dress. Will have to sort out my hair. Im thinking black all over.
Lately Iv missed you and thought what did you see in me then. I wasn't even nice but inside I was, and I put you through some things which must have scared you and thats where I went wrong. I'd say I'm better now. I'v chanaged. I wish I could tell you, make you believe me, and have me back.
Somethings don't end up the way you want/should.
I'm sorry.