#117 - The Comeback
I last wrote here on December 2, 2006. That was apparently 77 weeks ago, as LJ informs me. I've been keeping abreast of entries made in my absence, and especially those which are directed at me. I don't really know why I felt compelled to write here again, as facebook had pretty much rendered this exercize quite redundant. It's a much easier way of keeping in touch, you see. Even then, I felt the need to write again (at the risk of sounding like a strange artist who takes his/her own way too seriously), not to answer back, but just because...I wanted to write. It's fun to look back at these things later on, they're much more detailed than what you remember later on, and those small things make all the difference. The second reason is this: I was having a disgruntled discussion with Tanaya over expressive arts and/or talents that we possessed. She's a damn fine singer and I'm a decent-to-good chess player. Quite obviously, the two spheres have different types of respect/adulation that come with them, and that was the point of discussion. I claimed that her talent was far more adored than mine, despite it being not worked upon as much as I have worked upon mine. The reason, of course, is that she's more naturally gifted, and in chess, there's no real advantage of being naturally gifted. In any case, she brought up the point that I can write better than most of the people she knew, and THAT reminded me how much I missed writing things consistently and playing with words.
So I titled this thing "The Comeback." But that's quite tentative, so don't go around expecting any real consistency.
My FINAL papers are coming up in a couple of weeks. It's the last four, ever. I'm not opting for post-grad yet, I want to work and earn proper before I want to learn again. Learning for 16 years at a stretch has been too much of a hassle, and I won't be repeating it anytime soon, not the least by choice. There may come a circumstance where I have no choice - if IBM do decide that they don't want me (or any of the 25 kids they picked up at the campus last year, due to the recent drawbacks in the IT industry), and if I can't wiggle my way into GE Hyderabad or Cummins here in Pune. Actually, i was trying to set up an internship with Cummins in Columbus, IN, so we'll see how that goes down. Even if IBM do want me, it won't be before December at the latest.
It's been a great journey for me, these last few years - both personally and academically. I was given a chance to prove myself against a different and higher standard, and with the exception of the first year, I'd say that I did. Successes start tasting much better of they've got stakes riding on them, and that is part of the reason why these four years have been great. They've re-instilled my faith in my own philosophy - you perform, and you get something for it. I'd begun to lose faith in said philosophy, because all through high school, I saw people getting things (that were supposed to be desirable) without performing. It's been important for me to realize that real desires for real people lie elsewhere, and performance is the best way of getting there.
And I've found some good friends, the kind that will stay with you throughout your life. The kind that you're not afraid to ask for help, or advice, or favors. I like to think that the sign of a true friend is that you can approach him/her with absolutely anything, without ever having to worry about what they will think of you.
YOU: Yes, it is probably better that way. It's better that both of us are unquestionably happy with what we've got, and that should serve as the reason that would keep both of us relatively happy about each other. Other than that, we leave it up to time, the great healer, to dry up old wounds.
Anyway, this has gone on far too long without containing anything to keep you reading. I'd like to mention that it was Tanaya (by her constant bugging about writing entries again, along with the aforementioned conversation), Blair (and the need to answer the question), and Hodgers (whose entry was the trigger required to put thought into action) as the principle sources of inspiration for the writing of this entry. So, thanks, guys, even if you didn't know you were inspirational.
You guys keep it cool.
So I titled this thing "The Comeback." But that's quite tentative, so don't go around expecting any real consistency.
My FINAL papers are coming up in a couple of weeks. It's the last four, ever. I'm not opting for post-grad yet, I want to work and earn proper before I want to learn again. Learning for 16 years at a stretch has been too much of a hassle, and I won't be repeating it anytime soon, not the least by choice. There may come a circumstance where I have no choice - if IBM do decide that they don't want me (or any of the 25 kids they picked up at the campus last year, due to the recent drawbacks in the IT industry), and if I can't wiggle my way into GE Hyderabad or Cummins here in Pune. Actually, i was trying to set up an internship with Cummins in Columbus, IN, so we'll see how that goes down. Even if IBM do want me, it won't be before December at the latest.
It's been a great journey for me, these last few years - both personally and academically. I was given a chance to prove myself against a different and higher standard, and with the exception of the first year, I'd say that I did. Successes start tasting much better of they've got stakes riding on them, and that is part of the reason why these four years have been great. They've re-instilled my faith in my own philosophy - you perform, and you get something for it. I'd begun to lose faith in said philosophy, because all through high school, I saw people getting things (that were supposed to be desirable) without performing. It's been important for me to realize that real desires for real people lie elsewhere, and performance is the best way of getting there.
And I've found some good friends, the kind that will stay with you throughout your life. The kind that you're not afraid to ask for help, or advice, or favors. I like to think that the sign of a true friend is that you can approach him/her with absolutely anything, without ever having to worry about what they will think of you.
YOU: Yes, it is probably better that way. It's better that both of us are unquestionably happy with what we've got, and that should serve as the reason that would keep both of us relatively happy about each other. Other than that, we leave it up to time, the great healer, to dry up old wounds.
Anyway, this has gone on far too long without containing anything to keep you reading. I'd like to mention that it was Tanaya (by her constant bugging about writing entries again, along with the aforementioned conversation), Blair (and the need to answer the question), and Hodgers (whose entry was the trigger required to put thought into action) as the principle sources of inspiration for the writing of this entry. So, thanks, guys, even if you didn't know you were inspirational.
You guys keep it cool.