this is self-wallowing so please ignore if you don't like when people are sad
ughklomum, this day has been complete crap. I felt so bad after band today, I just wanted to throw my trumpet and never look at it again. I was really pissed off the rest of the day and everything makes me sad. I just want to be happy and not stressed out, but that won't happen. I guess its my own fault, everything I've done has been so stupid, but I don't know why I care because I'm not going to gain anything for caring about stuff that can't be changed and no one else wants to change. I just want to go to sleep and wake up not exhausted mentally. I thought I was getting there, but now I'm even worse. Its awful when you hurt someone and you feel very hurt in return. There's no reason to be hurt but you feel like they did it to you, but its totally not that way. Its just a bad feeling. As a result of feeling sad I've eaten so much food today that was really bad for me. I really want to look on the bright side of things, but right now I feel like there is no other side.