ughhhhh

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so much work to do, so little time, and i really dont want to do any of it, i think i have ADD or something, i cant concentrate, i sit down to do something and im like "oh i'll just do this first...i'll start in an hour..etc" this is what has been ruling my life since junior high, havent outgrown it i guess, i know i'll get it done, but it really is terribly hard for me to get things done, i just keep telling myself next week i can do whatever i want, but today i have to work...ARGH LIFE!

i feel chunky, i gotta get moving, right now im just like "ahh fuck it, i'll start working out next week" its easy to use the excuse that school is in the way and it is, but next week im gonna pretend like im on extreme makeover and crack down, i just wish i had the personal trainor beside me! i want to go to kickboxing classes that would be the best thing for this giant ass..haha

after much debate (with myself) i decided im not gonna go to hellfest, i really want to go and see my friends and people i never get to see, but i cant afford it..it makes me sad cause who knows when the hell im gonna see anyone, but its just not in the cards right now, i gotta save my money for my move to toronto.

mom was checkin out make up schools for me today, it was great..haha dad still doestn really think im gonna go to make up school, i'll let him live in the dream world that im gonna be some marketing exec in a big company, but his baby girl wants to make people beautiful instead! haha