Mar 24, 2015 17:12
Hi. I am alive, and dare I say it... well?
It's been 5 years and I think I've come out the other end a whole new person. But not really. Just shiny(ish) and renewed.
I have a career. Got a job in October 2010 and never looked back. Worked until last July in Human Resources and I transferred into a Recruiter position this past summer. I work from home, in a beach town at a condo complex with a pool - hello summer Friday's with wifi and a laptop in the sun.
Definitely not what I ever envisioned for myself, but I am excelling and our board and my boss have noticed. It's a good feeling.
I've cut off contact with nearly every negative influence in my life. My mother aside. Barely speak to more than 2 people from high school, and until this past weekend, hasn't seen or heard from anyone from the golf club in 6 years. The woe-is-me co workers from my old department can't bring me down since I no longer see them on a daily basis. I joined a local barre studio, and the vibe of positive, strong women is so important for me to surround myself with, not to mention the total mental and physical workout.
Steven and I are still together. It'll be 8 years this MDW and it just works. Eventually we'll have to sort out living situations, but part of me also feels that being independent financially is the most important thing- I know this is influenced by my past and I have to deal with that, but I refuse not to be financially stable or to worry about where I'll be living a week from now.
In short, I grew up. I always lived fast and I have had experiences that many people much older than me still have not encountered, but I've moved forward with my life and am making the most of it. I'm not perfect and my life isn't perfect, but it is better. I've finally discovered that I can be happy and am making sure that I actually live it.