It's been awhile.
It's strange. Life passes you by and you have no idea when the ride will stop... The death of Chris Yu got me to thinking. Although I didn't know Chris very well, I still knew him well enough. We played on the same basketball teams, some of the same classes and such... and its strange to think that he's left us.
It got me to thinking about my life and my friends and family. How will people view me on my death bed, have I done enough to ensure my future is bright, and so on.
I've made many choices in my life and I can say I have no regrets. Which is a great thing, except I still question myself as to why things ended up the way they did. I know I shouldn't be thinking that way, that life is a simple thing, you make choices and you don't look back, but I tend to dwell on things. Maybe its because I'm confused about the circumstances or whatever, but hopefully soon my thoughts will be at peace.
It's funny, two years ago, about this time I was kicked out of my house because of the way I took Carla breaking up with me. First Tim let me stay with him, then I ended up stayin at Evan's house. I think those were some of the best times of my life so far sadly. Not that I haven't experienced much, but there's just people out there that enjoy just kickin back with your best friends and just chillin, or doin something out of the norm.
This time last year, Evan and I had to scrounge cash to go to Boom City. We came back with so many fireworks, it was crazy. He bought this HUGE like 5000 fire cracker thing and we were worried it'd take forever to finish, but in reality it was only like... 3-4 seconds. It was nuts, we were planning on getting another one to put infront of this crazy republican's house... I wonder if he's still gonna do that.
Now I don't really have anyone too close to me. A couple of friends here, a few contacts there... but no one really that I feel like myself around. I guess that happens when you've known your best friends since elementary. Part of me wishes those relationships stayed strong, but it's made me realize how important family really is. When you have no one else, you always have family.
Well enough of this rant. Sorry to bore you, but I had to get a few things off my chest...
Rest in Peace Chris Yu. You fought the good fight and it's truly sad to see someone as great as yourself no longer with us, but I'm sure you are in a better place now, pain free, cancer free.
It got me to thinking about my life and my friends and family. How will people view me on my death bed, have I done enough to ensure my future is bright, and so on.
I've made many choices in my life and I can say I have no regrets. Which is a great thing, except I still question myself as to why things ended up the way they did. I know I shouldn't be thinking that way, that life is a simple thing, you make choices and you don't look back, but I tend to dwell on things. Maybe its because I'm confused about the circumstances or whatever, but hopefully soon my thoughts will be at peace.
It's funny, two years ago, about this time I was kicked out of my house because of the way I took Carla breaking up with me. First Tim let me stay with him, then I ended up stayin at Evan's house. I think those were some of the best times of my life so far sadly. Not that I haven't experienced much, but there's just people out there that enjoy just kickin back with your best friends and just chillin, or doin something out of the norm.
This time last year, Evan and I had to scrounge cash to go to Boom City. We came back with so many fireworks, it was crazy. He bought this HUGE like 5000 fire cracker thing and we were worried it'd take forever to finish, but in reality it was only like... 3-4 seconds. It was nuts, we were planning on getting another one to put infront of this crazy republican's house... I wonder if he's still gonna do that.
Now I don't really have anyone too close to me. A couple of friends here, a few contacts there... but no one really that I feel like myself around. I guess that happens when you've known your best friends since elementary. Part of me wishes those relationships stayed strong, but it's made me realize how important family really is. When you have no one else, you always have family.
Well enough of this rant. Sorry to bore you, but I had to get a few things off my chest...
Rest in Peace Chris Yu. You fought the good fight and it's truly sad to see someone as great as yourself no longer with us, but I'm sure you are in a better place now, pain free, cancer free.