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we broke up got back together then broke up. it was so wierd not talkin to him today. i really hope well be able to be friends. the thought that we arent gonna be as close hurts. but i just dont want it to be where we dont talk anymore. it hurt me bc he deserves better he does. im sorry i hurt him but he probly doesnt believe me. i cant help it if i have other feelings. i knnow im gonna like him again. its just hard not being close to him. i just wish he would understand that what realy hurts me is that he is such a great guy and hes been so just great and that i dont want him hurt and it hurts me that i like broke his heart. its just rediculous how much i dont know what i want.im gonna miss hangin out with him. maybe well be able to work up to hangin out again- maybe not. its not like we broke up and i still get to see him - if were broken up its like hes not there. i hate it bc i know he probly thinks im a cheating bitch now who only cares about herself and that is the last thing i want. it really is.i wish he knew that i really care about him . it hurt bc he told me i used him. anyone could back it up that i really liked him - he made me happy and i felt like he had my back.it felt right but i have to figure things out with john. he came around at a bad time but i have to see how things go i just do.
and alex if you read this just know that it makes me cry thinkin at how i mustve hurt you bc youve been there for me and this didnt happen bc i found somethin better- ITS NOt
its just theres another guy in the picture and i just dont know. maybe you can forgiveme but if you never wanna talk to me again i understand i honest to God do. im so f**king sorry i dont want to hurt you.
i thought i was fallin for you-i WASNT using you you should know me enough to know im not a bitch like that.
i just got confused and torn bw you and john and i started wondering what kind of feelings i really had for you.
alex im not pulling any gay lines on you that i dont mean i mean every word of it and i was never faking. i kissed you those last days because i wanted to bc it still felt right when you had me in your arms it did
i really just got confused
just please believe me ok?
and alex if you read this just know that it makes me cry thinkin at how i mustve hurt you bc youve been there for me and this didnt happen bc i found somethin better- ITS NOt
its just theres another guy in the picture and i just dont know. maybe you can forgiveme but if you never wanna talk to me again i understand i honest to God do. im so f**king sorry i dont want to hurt you.
i thought i was fallin for you-i WASNT using you you should know me enough to know im not a bitch like that.
i just got confused and torn bw you and john and i started wondering what kind of feelings i really had for you.
alex im not pulling any gay lines on you that i dont mean i mean every word of it and i was never faking. i kissed you those last days because i wanted to bc it still felt right when you had me in your arms it did
i really just got confused
just please believe me ok?