I feel like a constant schmuck
I am seriously one of the biggest fools ever. Anytime I have something to say I just say it, ignoring any social blocks that should prevent from saying such a thing. Sometimes I think that is just who I am and to care about me you must realize that I will daily put my foot in my mouth (it's a skill). But on the other hand it is not something I respect about myself. Sometimes it is best to be strong and silent and have my actions do the talking for me, but everything for me requires a lengthy and confusing conversation before hand. This is part of the problem: I speak too much and have trouble making the point I intended, so everything is merely stream of conscience, even things I have written down. This lack of organization/clarity allows foolish things to be inferred or I just say dumb things. I need to learn to be more like the strong Gary Cooper, not like the whiney John Cusack, who although entertaining, is clearly not a role model.