Reflection
Here I am, on a Sunday morning, unable to sleep anymore (sleep is the most invasive thing here) and looking back of the last couple of weeks. and how much they have really sucked. I am not a negative person, but looking back I have not been as positive as I am normally. Wondering why this is I look back at all that has happened. Lack of sleep, people being stupid, and feeling like I have been told "go to hell" is the only things that I can figure out. Maybe I deserve being told that, but then what did i do THIS time?! Was it me, or is that just what happens when we leave home, when we over stretch ourselves and stop taking care of ourselves. Do we lose the interests of the past? Where will that take us? I guess we all need time to reflect; do determine what is important, what is worth putting effort into, and most importantly where do we want to go.
I should never have said the things I said, never have done the things I did, never thought the things I thought. I don't deserve forgiveness. I just wish that one day I will be a pleasant memory and not something that causes pain to think about.
Ok, lesson of life: Swimming in a over chlorinated pool is hazardous to you health. You burn your nostrils, your tongue feels like a cat's, your skin becomes to tight, and you hack up your lungs. And 12 hours is not a long enough break for the chlorine to come down to normal levels!!! So, trying to swim again will not work!!! I love it when people screw up the pool, it keeps me so happy and my lungs clean.
Well, my room is in dire need of cleaning... oh the joys!!! Actually compared to everyone rooms back home, mine right now is probably the cleanest, and I have to clean it more... Old buildings create dust in record time... dust and an hour later there will be dust everywhere!! And I have recruiting leave stuff to do, to make sure I can come home early for Thanksgiving!! And more of the never ending homework... including a big nasty group project. YEAH!!!
I should never have said the things I said, never have done the things I did, never thought the things I thought. I don't deserve forgiveness. I just wish that one day I will be a pleasant memory and not something that causes pain to think about.
Ok, lesson of life: Swimming in a over chlorinated pool is hazardous to you health. You burn your nostrils, your tongue feels like a cat's, your skin becomes to tight, and you hack up your lungs. And 12 hours is not a long enough break for the chlorine to come down to normal levels!!! So, trying to swim again will not work!!! I love it when people screw up the pool, it keeps me so happy and my lungs clean.
Well, my room is in dire need of cleaning... oh the joys!!! Actually compared to everyone rooms back home, mine right now is probably the cleanest, and I have to clean it more... Old buildings create dust in record time... dust and an hour later there will be dust everywhere!! And I have recruiting leave stuff to do, to make sure I can come home early for Thanksgiving!! And more of the never ending homework... including a big nasty group project. YEAH!!!