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[usaffireman1984]

just got off work about 15 minutes ago. it was a slow night so i actually got to sleep thru the night. lauren called me last night while i was at work. i havent heard from her in weeks. i keep trying to just forget about her but as soon as i get to a point where im good and not constantly thinking about where she is or what shes doing or whether she thinks about me too, she calls. she asked if i was going to davids party tonight, i told her i didnt know. i dont want to go if she will be there. i dont want to sit there all night and watch her get trashed and try and hook up with all my friends. been there, done that and it doesnt ever end pretty.

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help to fix myself
Your making me insane
All I can say is

I tried to help you once
A kiss will only vise
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last dance

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

i just happened to be listening to this and thought the lyrics were appropriate for the mood im in right now. im going back to bed.