Nov 18, 2008 00:57
"Over these past few years, I've only wanted to move forward and touch that which I couldn't reach... though I've never been able to tangibly define what it was. Not knowing where those near-intimidating thoughts came from, I simply continued to work. As things finally came into focus, I was in unbearable pain, knowing my heart had gradually lost its freedom and flexibility in bygone days. And then, one morning... when I realized that I had completely lost my earnest and acute feelings from long ago... I knew I was at my limit..."
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The snow has started to fall again, and for the first time in a long time, I felt part of what I used to feel; that hollowness, that empty romance. When it's dark and it feels like the night will last forever... when you can't see anyone; just the falling snow... when you're alone and warm surrounded by nothing but the cold... that sadness you feel when you know moments don't last forever, so you cling to them all the more tightly... that's what I felt again tonight...
But it doesn't feel like it used to... just like I'll never love the same way I used to.
It's gone.
It's over.
Maybe, someday... if I can once again feel that empty romance completely... maybe I could love that way again...
Or maybe love is like your fingernails. After the first time you polish them, they'll never have their original sheen again. Some things, once damaged, stay damaged forever. Some things you end up missing forever...
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I'm always searching for you, always searching for your figure.
At the opposite train platform, or through a window into a back alley.
Though there's no way you could be here.
If wishes do come true, I want to be at your side.
There's nothing I can't do.
I'd give up everything to embrace you.
If it was just to ease my loneliness, anyone would do.
But on this night where it seems the stars will fall from the sky,
I want to be truthful to myself.
One more time; seasons, don't fade away.
One more time; I want that time when we fooled around together.
I'm always searching for you, always searching for your figure.
At the intersection, or in my dreams.
Though there's no way you could be here.
If miracles do occur, I want to show you now;
the new dawn, how I'll be from now on,
and the words of love I could never tell you.
The memories of summer revolve around me
and your throbbing heartbeat that suddenly vanished.
I'm always searching for you, always searching for your figure.
In the city at dawn, or in Sakuragi-cho.
Though there's no way you could be here.
If wishes do come true, I want to be at your side.
There's nothing I can't do.
I'd give up everything to embrace you.
I'm always searching for you, always searching for even a fragment of you.
At a store I'm going to, or in the corner of a newspaper.
Though there's no way you could be here.
If miracles do occur, I want to show you now;
the new dawn, how I'll be from now on,
and the words of love I could never tell you.
I'll always end up looking somewhere for your smile.
While waiting for the express train, or at a railroad crossing.
Though there's no way you could be here.
If I could live life over again, I would go to your side every time.
For I want nothing
more precious than you...