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::Sigh::
8 days till my birthday.
Mom's this weekend was eh.even though i only had to be there for 1 day i guess you could say it felt like forever.
ive changed my mind about telling her i'm not coming over. i figure i'm not really emotionally ready to not see her for that long amount of time. cuz i know it would take her more than a month to change...and since i don't really have a strong backing from dad's house right now..i can't exactly deal with it. although id like to. SIGH.
why does everything have to be so complicated. its so much easier when people actually talk to you in your own house.
oh well.
i don't know what i wanna do for my birthday yet. depends on if anyone is talking to me by then. otherwise its gonna be a sucky birthday family wise.
if you haven't noticed im being pessimistic.and i don't really care.
i feel so blah. my grades ive noticed are pretty bad..especially chemistry..UGH and thats without the zero from the lab. which means im in way over my head for this marking period..im gonna have to get REALLY good grades on everything from now till awhile...
Well if i do do anything for my birthday...it will probably be on the 6th since diana can maybe make it then..yep..and that way i will get out of another friday with my mom...maybe i can do it that saturday..i don't know..
i'm thinking about bowling but im not sure..someone mentioned iceskating but im horrible at that.HMM. bowling sounds peachy. i have no clue on how to go though..like where any bowling alleys are or anything. guess ill have to ask someone.
ive realized i have a lot of awkwardness in my life..i don't know what it is..i guess i just attract awkward moments and silences and things.
it's weird.
i wonder whats for dinner tonight.
i want some orange soda.and some chinese food.
a lot of people have birthdays in may diana pointed out today..ive never really thought about it but i have seen more and more people walking around with balloons.
mother's day is coming up quickly..its the eighth...and im not sure whether to get my mom something or not..hmm. ill have to think on that..
i already got karen something. i think she'll like it. if we're talking by then.
lalalalla..im really bored and this is a long entry isn't it? yes it is.
hmm.
i wonder if we are doing anything this weekend..i don't have plans on saturday anymore. darn.
maybe i should go to the mall. and get myself something for my big 16..i don't know...considering i only have 20 dollars thats probably not an option.
i need a JOB. badly.
and diana i was way late going that way after 7th period..so if u went that way i am sorry. BUT i did write in the notebook..i just was too late to give it to u. bah.
i think this is the longest entry i have ever wrote(written?) so i might as well stop.
Later Gators,
jess
8 days till my birthday.
Mom's this weekend was eh.even though i only had to be there for 1 day i guess you could say it felt like forever.
ive changed my mind about telling her i'm not coming over. i figure i'm not really emotionally ready to not see her for that long amount of time. cuz i know it would take her more than a month to change...and since i don't really have a strong backing from dad's house right now..i can't exactly deal with it. although id like to. SIGH.
why does everything have to be so complicated. its so much easier when people actually talk to you in your own house.
oh well.
i don't know what i wanna do for my birthday yet. depends on if anyone is talking to me by then. otherwise its gonna be a sucky birthday family wise.
if you haven't noticed im being pessimistic.and i don't really care.
i feel so blah. my grades ive noticed are pretty bad..especially chemistry..UGH and thats without the zero from the lab. which means im in way over my head for this marking period..im gonna have to get REALLY good grades on everything from now till awhile...
Well if i do do anything for my birthday...it will probably be on the 6th since diana can maybe make it then..yep..and that way i will get out of another friday with my mom...maybe i can do it that saturday..i don't know..
i'm thinking about bowling but im not sure..someone mentioned iceskating but im horrible at that.HMM. bowling sounds peachy. i have no clue on how to go though..like where any bowling alleys are or anything. guess ill have to ask someone.
ive realized i have a lot of awkwardness in my life..i don't know what it is..i guess i just attract awkward moments and silences and things.
it's weird.
i wonder whats for dinner tonight.
i want some orange soda.and some chinese food.
a lot of people have birthdays in may diana pointed out today..ive never really thought about it but i have seen more and more people walking around with balloons.
mother's day is coming up quickly..its the eighth...and im not sure whether to get my mom something or not..hmm. ill have to think on that..
i already got karen something. i think she'll like it. if we're talking by then.
lalalalla..im really bored and this is a long entry isn't it? yes it is.
hmm.
i wonder if we are doing anything this weekend..i don't have plans on saturday anymore. darn.
maybe i should go to the mall. and get myself something for my big 16..i don't know...considering i only have 20 dollars thats probably not an option.
i need a JOB. badly.
and diana i was way late going that way after 7th period..so if u went that way i am sorry. BUT i did write in the notebook..i just was too late to give it to u. bah.
i think this is the longest entry i have ever wrote(written?) so i might as well stop.
Later Gators,
jess