Nothing.
Something's missing and I'm really not sure what is. I really need something to look forward to. There's just this very big gap in my life. And I'm not sure is it because I haven't been connecting with people, missing the connection or is it something else. Maybe I should really go back to drawing and painting. Or even reading mangas. (I actually haven't been catching up on anything new since last year.)
I'm really not sure.
Really need to wake up. And do something. Maybe go for a hike or something. I need to spark something off. Something is just not right.
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Something else.
I'm not eloquent nor good at connecting with people. And I am a horrible friend, who does really great disappearing act and remaining uncontactable. I'm sure many of you think that I don't care a shit or is pretty much not worth any effort to reconnect.
Not sure why I do that. Really. I do care about you all. I really do. But I really don't know why I just do this. Leaving people and not making effort at all. Yet still keep these people close to my heart then lament about things changing and people drifting apart to a point that we can no longer connect again. Also taking for granted those whom I know we can still connect despite not talking to each other for years when we meet, by not keeping in contact. I care. I really do.
Well, I'm slowly trying to organise meet up sessions with friends one by one. Or as a group. To do some catching up. But I'm planning this really... s.l.o.w.l.y.
Please kick me in the ass. Drop me a sms or phone call and scold me or something. I really deserve it. And let's meet up.
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In a limbo. Limbo. Ought to start crawling out of it.
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