I KNOW IT WANT PERFECT, BUT NOTHING EVER IS
SO, ITS TIMES LIKE THIS IM GLAD I HAVENT DELETED MY JOURNAL YET. THERE ISNT MUCH TO DO HERE. I AM HAVING A RATHER GOOD TIME THO, ENTERTAINING MYSELF, RELAXING. TODAY SUCKED THROUGH MOST OF THE DAY. I SAT IN AN AIRPORT 4 5 HOURS READING. I BOUGHT THIS BOOK 2DAY AND SO FAR ITS REALLY GOOD. I LOVE READING. I DUNNO. IVE FELT REALLY DIFFRENT LATELY BUT REALLY HAPPY. THE ONLY THING THAT HAS BEEN BOTHERING ME IS THE "GUY" ASPECT. I DONT LIKE NOT HAVING NEONE. STEVEN WONT TALK 2 ME. I UNDERSTAND THAT THO. I WOULDNT TALK 2 ME. I GUESS I JUST DONT HAVE HIM 2 TALK 2 ABOUT THINGS I KNOW HE UNDERSTANDS, I MISS BEING WITH HIM, IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT WHAT I NEED 2 TELL HIM THAT I HAVENT TOLD HIM YET, I KNOW THERES SOMETHING ELSE I SHOULD BE SAYING TO HIM, BUT IT WONT CHANGE THINGS, SO I KNOW JUST 2 LET IT GO. I WISH TOSHA WAS HERE. WED BE LIKE DAMN IM BORED, LETS GET INTO TROUBLE, AND ITD BE COOL. WHEN IM HERE THE ONLY PERSON I REALLY GET ALONG WITH IS MY CUZIN CIARA, BUT MY BROTHER IS ALWAYS AROUND US, SO IM JUST LIKE PEACE CECE, AND I BECOME A LONER, I GUESS IM INE WITH THAT THO. CHILLED IN THE BASEMENT 4 A BIT, CAME BAK AND LAYED AND LISTENED 2 PINK FLOYD THEN WATCHED THAT 70S SHOW, ATE A KILLER DINNER AND READ A BIT. MY MOM IS SMOKING HER 4TH CIGARETTE SINCE SHE GOT HERE B4 I STARTED THIS, CRAZY. I LOVE MY MOM. WELL ITS 915 AT HOME SO IM GUNNA CALL TOSHA AND MAKE A BONG.
FOREVER,
CHELSEA
FOREVER,
CHELSEA