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sorry i havent written in awhile..its just that things havent been too great lately. yah things are very much over with me and tony. there's no goin back this time. he did the unforgivable..and jackie too i mean god wtf the two ppl i loved most in this world fucked me over by fucking each other i mean tony said he want gonna pressure me into doing things i didnt want to for god's sake im onky 15 and he ssays we;ll wait. i mean i kno i kissed sean in february but i was drunk and it was only a kiss. is this payback caz if it is..its so much worse..i thought we had moved passed that. i am so tired of all this shit and drama and i mean so many ppl have stabbed me in the back this summer like chris, marky, kryst, tabby..i told her everything caz i needed to get it all out and then she goes around and spreads rumors that im insane caz i went to a shrink wit my family for consuling caz of anna being anorexic (my sister) and my dad getting remarried but yah and now i just want to crawl up into a ball and die caz i feel like there's no one to talk to i mean all my guy friends were friends wit tony and even tho wat he did was wrong they're still his friends and well sarah is in france and tabby and jackie are bitches..dont just comment sayin u feel bad for me and we can talk caz we cant i am so utterly alone and i miss sar so much but i dont wanna bring down her vaca..i think im gonna go stay wit my brother for a while in jersey i needa get away from all this but i will be bringing my laptop to keep u all update ahaha yahh well thats it for now :( sighh