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Ok, so.. MORP was last night! It was soo FUN! I found out my friends are really good dancers. Me and Mandy made Matt's dreams come true. LOL. I would ahve to say out of the whole adventure getting ready was the best. HAHA! The coconut, peach and orange alcohol was GOOD! Right katie? hahahah. yeah.
I have so many mixed emotions go through my head right now, i just can't explain it. I know what i want in life. I know who i want. But i don't want it right now. I never wanted to fall like this, this early in life. I want to be free have fun just be a young girl having so much fun as possible. Well my plan got messed up when i met him. he stole my heart and i don't want it back. I want him to keep it. Because i know for a fact i will never love another like i love him. no matter how much i try to deny it, its true, he has my heart and i will never get it back. And i just hope that when he finds someone better that he is truly happy, because thats all i want from him, even if i dont have his heart all i want is to know he is happy. That will be good enough for me, no matter how much it will hurt deep down i'll kno it's right.
he says he will wait for me to realize i love him and need him back. But what he doesn't know is that i already love him, and i do need him.
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I have so many mixed emotions go through my head right now, i just can't explain it. I know what i want in life. I know who i want. But i don't want it right now. I never wanted to fall like this, this early in life. I want to be free have fun just be a young girl having so much fun as possible. Well my plan got messed up when i met him. he stole my heart and i don't want it back. I want him to keep it. Because i know for a fact i will never love another like i love him. no matter how much i try to deny it, its true, he has my heart and i will never get it back. And i just hope that when he finds someone better that he is truly happy, because thats all i want from him, even if i dont have his heart all i want is to know he is happy. That will be good enough for me, no matter how much it will hurt deep down i'll kno it's right.
he says he will wait for me to realize i love him and need him back. But what he doesn't know is that i already love him, and i do need him.
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