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today was my last day at work, and as i suspected it was so hard to do. i hesitated to even clock out. i'll see these girls tomorrow and some on saturday, but knowing that it's over is so heartbreaking. it's sad to say that nordstrom has become my second home. i'm at work more than i am at home. there's so many memories in that place, and i KNOW that some of these girls will be with me foreeeevvvverrr. i've grown so much as a person, and learned so much working there, and i know i'll cherish my 2 years at that store forever!
i guess today just triggered the start of my goodbyes. i'm sure it'll only get harder from here, but it's inevitable, i have to deal with it.
is it wrong of me to be hurt and disappointed that andrew didn't even come in to say hi on my last day of work, or even send me a text message that said "have a good last day of work"...? when i drove to his bar his last night? i dont know if i just wanted that acknowledgement or if it would've been the right thing to do. i know we're both stressed and overwhelmed wit moving and packing, but i think he's turning all his emotions into agression towards me. and if i know him, a part of him is mad/jealous that this will be MY weekend, we're celebrating MY BDAY, and just squeezing in somewhat of a goodbye celebration into my party. if this is a right reason, then as usual, he's just mad at me because i'm getting more attention than him.
i'm so over his girly pussy emotions.
we're close to the finish line and i'm still scared to move in with him. if he's liket his now, then will it just get worse later on?
what ever. fuck it. i wanted to be here to celebrate my birthday, so i will fucking celebrate, and not let anything get to me and enjoy my time left here!
i guess today just triggered the start of my goodbyes. i'm sure it'll only get harder from here, but it's inevitable, i have to deal with it.
is it wrong of me to be hurt and disappointed that andrew didn't even come in to say hi on my last day of work, or even send me a text message that said "have a good last day of work"...? when i drove to his bar his last night? i dont know if i just wanted that acknowledgement or if it would've been the right thing to do. i know we're both stressed and overwhelmed wit moving and packing, but i think he's turning all his emotions into agression towards me. and if i know him, a part of him is mad/jealous that this will be MY weekend, we're celebrating MY BDAY, and just squeezing in somewhat of a goodbye celebration into my party. if this is a right reason, then as usual, he's just mad at me because i'm getting more attention than him.
i'm so over his girly pussy emotions.
we're close to the finish line and i'm still scared to move in with him. if he's liket his now, then will it just get worse later on?
what ever. fuck it. i wanted to be here to celebrate my birthday, so i will fucking celebrate, and not let anything get to me and enjoy my time left here!