vulnerable

[ursmile_kills]

mistakes.
mistakes on how you acted.
how you replied.
i made the mistake of judging.
somebody who was tryin to be sincere.
and i shrugged it off my shoulder.
as if it didnt mean anything.
like it was just the same bullshit that every guy spits.

than you realize.
it wasnt.
so you reject him.
then you see him.
and you dont know what to do.
but why waste your time?
you dont want to do that.
so then theres the fear of being rejected or just waisting your time..
cause he no longer cares nor he may not even think twice about it.

or maybe.
im just imagining feelings for him
maybe its just because of what else is going on.
i guess it doesnt matter.
we alwasy want what we cant have.
and once we even get a climpse of what we can have
we dont want it anymore.

tired of being strong..
beginning to think it doesnt pay off.