Uncomfortable. News.

[ursilentsingr]

So, I didn't get the graduate assistantship at IU and the most frustrating part about it all is if I had not emailed the secretary and asked her, I wouldn't have ever known because the would not have told me. It's one of the most unprofessional things ever and certainly very frustrating. I wish I had not been banking on the possibility of that money coming in for me. I am now scrambling to get enough money to live there for a year. I know I have enough for tuition and some left over, so I'll probably use that to get by for the first several months of rent and other expenses and try and find a job. It's a college town, so hopefully I'll luck out and get one.

Please pray for me. I really feel like this is the key to unleashing my voice (studying with Carol Vaness) and I just need to get there. There are too many things right with this to be wrong.

Sometimes you just need someone to hold you and tell you it's going to be alright in the end. I'm too far away from anyone to have that right now.  This isn't the end, most definitely, but it's just a little bit of a bummer right now considering the financial situation my family is in right now. My mom just lost her job, Stacey wants to go to a 40k school and needs more than half the money to go, and Dianne...well, she's trying to get her degree too.

Sometimes it seems like dreams cost too much...I just wish I could break free of that whole money thing.