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it's hard to write when your eyes are filled with tears.
liz says:
i can't do this bridget. i can't. i feel like my whole life is so close to over. i'm so depressed i can hardly function. i haven't eaten in a few days now. i've completely lost my appetite. i used to be the most positve person out of everyone i know, and now i can't crack a smile more than 2 or 3 times a day. i have/had already practically given my life to him. or my heart rather, but now.............
liz says:
it feels like there's nothing left. i feel like an empty shell. i did my best to help him out, and support him and encourage him, and let him know that everything was going to be ok. that we were going to make it through this...but i never got any kind of positive response?! nothing. so i just started to break down....and i started to believe that it really was over, for good...............
liz says:
and you have no idea how much that crushed me. i know that a part of me is already gone. there's a hole in my soul, and it's going to take a loooong time to heal. we already plannned our life together, and i truly believed i was the only girl that he loved, or ever would love. and now, i feel like the only girl he'll never love again.
liz says:
i can't explain to you how much it hurts. you really have no idea. you don't know until you've experienced it. i never thought i'd get my heart broken so badly. and it's not even completely over yet.
The good NEW days says:
I'm soo sorry liz, you're right, I don't understand at all because I don't know what I would do in your situation and the only thing I can think to tell you is something you already know, and that is the only one who can mend a broken heart is Jesus Christ, he's the only one who really understands, I'm sorry if thats not what you want to hear but thats all I know to say, that, and God loves you
The good NEW days says:
and I love you sooo much too and I'm here for you
liz says:
yah, i know. and i'm trying my hardest to let God handle this one. but it's so hard. it really is. i've never felt so broken before.
liz says:
i can't even describe to you how much i'm hurting right now. and all i want is to be held and comforted, but no one here can do that for me. because no one even comes close to understanding how much i loved, and always will love shaun. and how much i hurt. this is probably the hardest thing i've ever had to deal w/ in my life so far.
The good NEW days says:
I know, when you are in a relationship, even a short one , you still give a little piece of your heart away and you loved him and thats a lot to give away hun so I'm sure you are in pain and I feel your pain too! I wish I could take it from you
liz says:
i just wish there was some way he could tell me it will be ok. even after i told him how i felt, and that i didn't think i could just sit here and wait for him to be ready for a relationship again, he still didn't have anything to say. that hurt more than anything.
liz says:
and i didn't just give him a piece of my heart. he had the whole thing.
liz says:
i've never loved anyone as much as i love shaun, and i never will again. first loves are always the hardest.
liz says:
i don't think i have enough love left to be that in love w/ anyone again. it would just be impossible for me. i'm always going to love shaun. and i'm always going to wish it worked out. and i'm always going to compare other people to him. i can't help it.
liz says:
i can't do this bridget. i can't. i feel like my whole life is so close to over. i'm so depressed i can hardly function. i haven't eaten in a few days now. i've completely lost my appetite. i used to be the most positve person out of everyone i know, and now i can't crack a smile more than 2 or 3 times a day. i have/had already practically given my life to him. or my heart rather, but now.............
liz says:
it feels like there's nothing left. i feel like an empty shell. i did my best to help him out, and support him and encourage him, and let him know that everything was going to be ok. that we were going to make it through this...but i never got any kind of positive response?! nothing. so i just started to break down....and i started to believe that it really was over, for good...............
liz says:
and you have no idea how much that crushed me. i know that a part of me is already gone. there's a hole in my soul, and it's going to take a loooong time to heal. we already plannned our life together, and i truly believed i was the only girl that he loved, or ever would love. and now, i feel like the only girl he'll never love again.
liz says:
i can't explain to you how much it hurts. you really have no idea. you don't know until you've experienced it. i never thought i'd get my heart broken so badly. and it's not even completely over yet.
The good NEW days says:
I'm soo sorry liz, you're right, I don't understand at all because I don't know what I would do in your situation and the only thing I can think to tell you is something you already know, and that is the only one who can mend a broken heart is Jesus Christ, he's the only one who really understands, I'm sorry if thats not what you want to hear but thats all I know to say, that, and God loves you
The good NEW days says:
and I love you sooo much too and I'm here for you
liz says:
yah, i know. and i'm trying my hardest to let God handle this one. but it's so hard. it really is. i've never felt so broken before.
liz says:
i can't even describe to you how much i'm hurting right now. and all i want is to be held and comforted, but no one here can do that for me. because no one even comes close to understanding how much i loved, and always will love shaun. and how much i hurt. this is probably the hardest thing i've ever had to deal w/ in my life so far.
The good NEW days says:
I know, when you are in a relationship, even a short one , you still give a little piece of your heart away and you loved him and thats a lot to give away hun so I'm sure you are in pain and I feel your pain too! I wish I could take it from you
liz says:
i just wish there was some way he could tell me it will be ok. even after i told him how i felt, and that i didn't think i could just sit here and wait for him to be ready for a relationship again, he still didn't have anything to say. that hurt more than anything.
liz says:
and i didn't just give him a piece of my heart. he had the whole thing.
liz says:
i've never loved anyone as much as i love shaun, and i never will again. first loves are always the hardest.
liz says:
i don't think i have enough love left to be that in love w/ anyone again. it would just be impossible for me. i'm always going to love shaun. and i'm always going to wish it worked out. and i'm always going to compare other people to him. i can't help it.