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At night, when I talk to him, Everything is okay...I think that it is perfect...WHich is great for the amount of sleep I can allow my self to attrieve. BUT during the day i know what is going on. It is like every night he is hypnotizing me to believe that he is "perfect"... Because that is what he does... I hate it. And hell everything is perfect if people didnt have to be so damn jealous of the stupidest stuff. You can't have him, I can, deal with it... YOU know some people think that if they just show someone that they like them that maybe they will like you back... In all reality, showing someone that you like them does nothing of the sort in my book. Sure it will cause a good hookup or two...Then what?? You get extremely bored wtih that person..Happens over and over again. BUT if you play hard to get, have to sneak around, and just understand each other deeper than in bed or what kind of food the other like , THAT'S when you find a NICE and INTERESTING relationship...That "can" last...In my "reality" that I live in haha...I don't think that anyone could ever be truly there for someone all the time. People are made imperfect and HELL they are pretty damn imperfect. I mean honestly have you ever been with someone who liked you just the way you are...AND DIDN"T LEAVE YOU?? Yeah they will likeyou just how you are but they will want more in the end. Sure your fine...But if you didnt try to change them or you just didn't care a little more..Nothing truly physical or whatever about you...just one or two things that you may do wronf...LOVE them...had that one happen. I Guess this whole long ass thing is just me feeling sorry for myself. And rattling on..But it does make me feel better that I got to let some one this out and even though most likely no one will ever read it...HEY I have let out steam at how DUMB assholes that I got left by think....UGGGHHH... Okay i think I feel better, all in all...For the most part.... Well I am out you guys. I hope things are going well...HMMM. OUT!~Bre*