happy new year to me...
so, im glad that my "boyfriend" desided to "dump me" through my best friend. ya, thats so mature...
kinda funny just a few days ago, i was showing him the ring that i wanted him to buy me... but ha!, it was "so stupid of me to go and buy a dress." why would i want to have a wedding dress? cause its not like he was really going to get me a FUCKING RING!!! i just love it when im lead on and on and on and ON by someone, who, b/c his job falls during the day, and mine at nite, we dont get to spend time together, and thats all my fault. oh, and oops!, i have a male friend. oh god! im such a terrible girlfriend!!!
17. DUH TRISHA!!! FUCKING IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how could you think that a 17 year old could love you enuff to marry you?! what the fuck were you thinking!!!??? everyone was apparently right. no one could ever love you enuff to SERIOUSLY want to marry you? i mean, just b/c someone tells you that they want to spend there life with you, doesnt mean they mean it. it just means they want you to know that they love you at the time. i, at least, made an effort. and spent 2 months worth of checks to buy a fucking dress, cause i actually wanted to!!!!!!!!!!! fuck guys that have issues!!! if you didnt mean it you shouldnt have said it!!! one stupid fight, and i dont talk to you for a day, and all of a sudden, "its over". well if your going to me a cock about it, FUCK YOU! i love you, but i guess that wasnt enuff.
time to go wallow in self pity, and paint for my art show, as if its going to be any good now, b/c half my shit is of seth. maybe ill go burn my wedding dress, or have it sent to seths house, so his mom can see it, and then throw it away, cause at least then shell know IIIIIIII wasnt full of shit about really loving him. ha! thatll be the day. maybe ill just call her... i bet his dad would be thrilled...
when you deside to come around, you know how to find me.
trish
kinda funny just a few days ago, i was showing him the ring that i wanted him to buy me... but ha!, it was "so stupid of me to go and buy a dress." why would i want to have a wedding dress? cause its not like he was really going to get me a FUCKING RING!!! i just love it when im lead on and on and on and ON by someone, who, b/c his job falls during the day, and mine at nite, we dont get to spend time together, and thats all my fault. oh, and oops!, i have a male friend. oh god! im such a terrible girlfriend!!!
17. DUH TRISHA!!! FUCKING IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how could you think that a 17 year old could love you enuff to marry you?! what the fuck were you thinking!!!??? everyone was apparently right. no one could ever love you enuff to SERIOUSLY want to marry you? i mean, just b/c someone tells you that they want to spend there life with you, doesnt mean they mean it. it just means they want you to know that they love you at the time. i, at least, made an effort. and spent 2 months worth of checks to buy a fucking dress, cause i actually wanted to!!!!!!!!!!! fuck guys that have issues!!! if you didnt mean it you shouldnt have said it!!! one stupid fight, and i dont talk to you for a day, and all of a sudden, "its over". well if your going to me a cock about it, FUCK YOU! i love you, but i guess that wasnt enuff.
time to go wallow in self pity, and paint for my art show, as if its going to be any good now, b/c half my shit is of seth. maybe ill go burn my wedding dress, or have it sent to seths house, so his mom can see it, and then throw it away, cause at least then shell know IIIIIIII wasnt full of shit about really loving him. ha! thatll be the day. maybe ill just call her... i bet his dad would be thrilled...
when you deside to come around, you know how to find me.
trish