this monkey has gone to heaven
ah! such an avid poster
i wish for so much right now
-to get good grades and graduate, ill be lucky if i can even graduate. depression has fucked my school and life in so many ways.
-for summer to be here and to have a job so i can sort of support my wants. i hate asking my parents for money even though i know they will always give it to me i just don't want to have to do it.
-to gain more weight and finally kick this on going eating disorder, i eat so much and it doesn't go anywhere i don't understand.
-i wish my brother would just go far away, away from the family or for my family to be able to get away from him. all he does is hurt them and ruin their lives. which breaks my heart.
-i wish it was possible to fall out of love, not that i am against it i am just so tired of hurting. they say time cures it but i just don't see it for the most part. its so pathetic how i am i swear
- i wish i wasn't dependent on my bestfriend and money and smoking
ive gotten to the point where i can say i am happy and content for the most part i guess there is a lot i wish i had more control over, i know some of its not my fault and some of it is i just want things to get better, not for me but at least for my family.
i wish for so much right now
-to get good grades and graduate, ill be lucky if i can even graduate. depression has fucked my school and life in so many ways.
-for summer to be here and to have a job so i can sort of support my wants. i hate asking my parents for money even though i know they will always give it to me i just don't want to have to do it.
-to gain more weight and finally kick this on going eating disorder, i eat so much and it doesn't go anywhere i don't understand.
-i wish my brother would just go far away, away from the family or for my family to be able to get away from him. all he does is hurt them and ruin their lives. which breaks my heart.
-i wish it was possible to fall out of love, not that i am against it i am just so tired of hurting. they say time cures it but i just don't see it for the most part. its so pathetic how i am i swear
- i wish i wasn't dependent on my bestfriend and money and smoking
ive gotten to the point where i can say i am happy and content for the most part i guess there is a lot i wish i had more control over, i know some of its not my fault and some of it is i just want things to get better, not for me but at least for my family.