"I, like God, do not play with dice and do not believe in coincidence"
ok, so i was never one to believe in fate.
then, a couple months ago i learned that the company my dad worked for in colorado-the professional rodeo cowboys association- went belly up and is now relocated to arizona. we moved to wi b/c the economy out west and esp in colorado is really scary and unstable. jobs are hard to come by. the job my dad was in was under a mondo scary boss and my dad didnt trust it, so he took a safe and secure job at merc and we packed up and moved to fondy. the business fired the mondo scary boss, went broke and moved to arizona. this means, had we stayed in colorado, my dad would either be unemployed right now or i'd be moving to arizona half-way through my senior year. ive gotten settled in fond du lac, i have friends, i have familiarity, it feels like home. i cant tell you how happy i am to have moved when i did. it was the perfect time to have done so. sure, it felt like being ripped away from this picture of happiness, but in the end, it was the best thing we couldve done. i still feel regretful about missing out on those years with my niece and sister, but i cant deny that things couldve been much, much worse.
now, i hate to get all john mayor and danielle steel-y on you, but im thinking lately that maybe things do happen for a reason. be it god's divine plan, be it karma, be it some mysterious plan for the universe, could it be possible that there are things at work here that we dont even know about?
im not talking about divine intervention, or soul mates, or even inescapable fate, but, rather, those improbable chains of events that lead to something wonderful you never even thought possible. IS there such thing as a coincidence? sometimes, i wonder, is that a good enough explaination for those unforseen circumstances that turn out to be just too...perfect?
like i said, i was never one to believe in fate, in fact i'd hate to think we're all stuck in some big plot with the ending already written, unable to change our destiny or anything oedipus-ish like that.
but im a little bit freaking out about all this talk of college and the future and growing up and living in the "real world," so its a little but comforting to think that, in some round-about and messed-up way, it will all end up ok.
then, a couple months ago i learned that the company my dad worked for in colorado-the professional rodeo cowboys association- went belly up and is now relocated to arizona. we moved to wi b/c the economy out west and esp in colorado is really scary and unstable. jobs are hard to come by. the job my dad was in was under a mondo scary boss and my dad didnt trust it, so he took a safe and secure job at merc and we packed up and moved to fondy. the business fired the mondo scary boss, went broke and moved to arizona. this means, had we stayed in colorado, my dad would either be unemployed right now or i'd be moving to arizona half-way through my senior year. ive gotten settled in fond du lac, i have friends, i have familiarity, it feels like home. i cant tell you how happy i am to have moved when i did. it was the perfect time to have done so. sure, it felt like being ripped away from this picture of happiness, but in the end, it was the best thing we couldve done. i still feel regretful about missing out on those years with my niece and sister, but i cant deny that things couldve been much, much worse.
now, i hate to get all john mayor and danielle steel-y on you, but im thinking lately that maybe things do happen for a reason. be it god's divine plan, be it karma, be it some mysterious plan for the universe, could it be possible that there are things at work here that we dont even know about?
im not talking about divine intervention, or soul mates, or even inescapable fate, but, rather, those improbable chains of events that lead to something wonderful you never even thought possible. IS there such thing as a coincidence? sometimes, i wonder, is that a good enough explaination for those unforseen circumstances that turn out to be just too...perfect?
like i said, i was never one to believe in fate, in fact i'd hate to think we're all stuck in some big plot with the ending already written, unable to change our destiny or anything oedipus-ish like that.
but im a little bit freaking out about all this talk of college and the future and growing up and living in the "real world," so its a little but comforting to think that, in some round-about and messed-up way, it will all end up ok.