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so.
does anyone else get scared blind by being tied down, or being in a commited relationship???
Because i'm terrified, being with someone.. it scares me..
I know it's all in my mind.. but i know.. i'm scared.
i'm having trouble being happy..
although, i'm still me. i'm still the same person..
i'm still spontaneous.. i'm still weird.. and crazy...
i still have fun..
i just keep thinking about certain things i shouldn't be thinking about..
i'm fighting the urge just to run away and live in a big city.. such as houston.. or the woodlands.. or portland.. or california..
i know that this next check i could jsut leave.. and drive and just go..
but where would i end up??
it's all very appealing..
but i know that i can't run forever..
i have to stop and face everything that's going on..
i'm so young and i just need to spread my wings and fly..
i can't be doing this 9-5 job, sitting on my ass, doing nothing with my life..
"It's funny how you never think about the women you've had, It's always the ones that get away that you can't forget."-chuck palahniuk-
this quote goes the same for life..
i can't think about the life i have now.. only the life i had.
but you know..
i think i might be happy.
scared shitless.
but happy.
does anyone else get scared blind by being tied down, or being in a commited relationship???
Because i'm terrified, being with someone.. it scares me..
I know it's all in my mind.. but i know.. i'm scared.
i'm having trouble being happy..
although, i'm still me. i'm still the same person..
i'm still spontaneous.. i'm still weird.. and crazy...
i still have fun..
i just keep thinking about certain things i shouldn't be thinking about..
i'm fighting the urge just to run away and live in a big city.. such as houston.. or the woodlands.. or portland.. or california..
i know that this next check i could jsut leave.. and drive and just go..
but where would i end up??
it's all very appealing..
but i know that i can't run forever..
i have to stop and face everything that's going on..
i'm so young and i just need to spread my wings and fly..
i can't be doing this 9-5 job, sitting on my ass, doing nothing with my life..
"It's funny how you never think about the women you've had, It's always the ones that get away that you can't forget."-chuck palahniuk-
this quote goes the same for life..
i can't think about the life i have now.. only the life i had.
but you know..
i think i might be happy.
scared shitless.
but happy.