ok, dear..
alright.. this is where you wanted me to write to you..
any of my friends on LJ.. a friend of mine refuses to use myspace and requested that i write to him here..
alright, C..
I miss you. you wanted to know why i'm upset.. well my mother is moving, a good friend of mine is, i'm afriand, close to suicide for no appearent reason.. I'm constantly ridiculed by family for not having a high enough intellect, my sister is leaving me as well.. i basically feel i can talk to no one.. i have to be the strong one for my friends because that is what friends do.. i fear for amber (my best friend) that her family is breaking apart and i can do nothing to help and make it easier.. i miss aj.. i think i am gay.. i have to live with my father (you never really met him, but he's horrible).. my mother is a whore.. i like someone, alot.. it's so.. crazy.. i feel like breaking down, but i can't.. i want someone to realize that i'm hurting.. really.. i'm not asking to be held, or even to talk to .. i just want the realization to sink in, for everyone to stop and just .. realize.. i know.. "blog drama" well.. truth, homie, it hurts inside..
hey, C, what do you do?
i can't MAKE them realize, can i? i hate having to act for my family, i HATE it. i'm trying really hard for everyone.. this house (my fathers) is making me depressed and when you called, i think, it made me realize how much i may never see you again.. GOD!! why can't ANYONE just say what they fucking mean?!? huh?? goddamn.. people frustrate the hell out of me.. and today, Kristin (another good friend about to cross the line into not so much) was treating me like i have done nothing for her.. i don't get it because the way she acts it's as nothing matters anymore.. she doesn't have any friends anymore.. she is so fucking rude.. she tries to regulate who i can hang out with and can't.. fucking people.. WHY DON'T THEY GET IT?!?
baby, C, I love you.. i miss you... i'm so proud of you.. revisit my LJ, i can update it when you'd like.. answer me one question.. is there anything that you do to make it easier?
ok, dear..
EVERYONE: sorry about the rant..
-Ima-
any of my friends on LJ.. a friend of mine refuses to use myspace and requested that i write to him here..
alright, C..
I miss you. you wanted to know why i'm upset.. well my mother is moving, a good friend of mine is, i'm afriand, close to suicide for no appearent reason.. I'm constantly ridiculed by family for not having a high enough intellect, my sister is leaving me as well.. i basically feel i can talk to no one.. i have to be the strong one for my friends because that is what friends do.. i fear for amber (my best friend) that her family is breaking apart and i can do nothing to help and make it easier.. i miss aj.. i think i am gay.. i have to live with my father (you never really met him, but he's horrible).. my mother is a whore.. i like someone, alot.. it's so.. crazy.. i feel like breaking down, but i can't.. i want someone to realize that i'm hurting.. really.. i'm not asking to be held, or even to talk to .. i just want the realization to sink in, for everyone to stop and just .. realize.. i know.. "blog drama" well.. truth, homie, it hurts inside..
hey, C, what do you do?
i can't MAKE them realize, can i? i hate having to act for my family, i HATE it. i'm trying really hard for everyone.. this house (my fathers) is making me depressed and when you called, i think, it made me realize how much i may never see you again.. GOD!! why can't ANYONE just say what they fucking mean?!? huh?? goddamn.. people frustrate the hell out of me.. and today, Kristin (another good friend about to cross the line into not so much) was treating me like i have done nothing for her.. i don't get it because the way she acts it's as nothing matters anymore.. she doesn't have any friends anymore.. she is so fucking rude.. she tries to regulate who i can hang out with and can't.. fucking people.. WHY DON'T THEY GET IT?!?
baby, C, I love you.. i miss you... i'm so proud of you.. revisit my LJ, i can update it when you'd like.. answer me one question.. is there anything that you do to make it easier?
ok, dear..
EVERYONE: sorry about the rant..
-Ima-