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I take things too personally. That should be the next thing I work on. I thought I'd gotten better at it, and then sometimes, it's just like crushhhhhhh my feelings get all jumbled and flattened. I'm better about not bursting into tears when it happens though, and kind of talking myself out of it. I mean relationships change, and life shifts around so later down the road things look different than they would have six months before. I just feel like sometimes I put a lot more emotion and time into things, than the other half of the equation does and then I want to kick myself for doing it. It's not that I'm giving, expecting to receive, but more like I don't feel like there is any growth made in the friendships and it gets kind of frustrating. I don't like the gaps, and the missing but sometimes things change so much that the pieces are hard to jam together. Like a puzzle with the wrong pieces. I don't know, I'm rambling and I'm coming from some stupid sappy place. Really life is good. There are just these things that jab into my heart when I shouldn't let them.